i must be despo. and even if i say i am. you are not to agree with me..

perfect start to a dramatic love story.

met at a busstop, gorgeously built standing at about 6 ft and a few inches tall with soft dark brown soft hair. gosh. that's a good combination. *drooling* wasn't anything posh, in plain casual wear carrying a backpack standing right in front of me in the bus-line. maybe it was the romance book i was reading.. or maybe it was that the boy was plain gorgeous.

well.. so as to not let him see me as a despo i kept my eyes on my book.. (the nerd who loved me) peeked out of the corner of my eye and meet his eyes..shy little me (do NOT contridict me) turn away almost immediately.. well i continued to read my book while waiting for the bus.

and finally the bus arrived. gorgeous boy jumps down from the railing, adjusts his backpack and strides forward. giving me the best view of his back. and i'm thinking already, can this be the start of a nice drama for my life? or it's just another plain old fantasy? maybe he has a girlfriend, though chances are high that he's single cos i didn't spot any ring on any finger.

somehow i got into the bus before him, double deck it was. i went upstairs, and muttering in my brain to myself that if fate says yes, he'll come up too. and oo! he was right behind me. what could i do but smile to myself? i took the seat behind the stairs where you can see everyone coming up. and of cos, i saw him. and having the smile yet to be wiped of my gleeing face, he looked my direction and smiled. sadly the bus was too empty.. (for once i hoped the bus was packed so he might choose the sit beside me) he sat in the seat behind me. i guess that's really good enough isn't it? i mean, i can think that he's thinking that that's a good seat to look at me.. (yes i'm despo but you are not to agree..) so while feeding my own fantasy.. i guess i just wasn't the type to go up and say, "pickup line". so i dug into my book.

when i reached my stop. my heart sighed (not really sad, it's like watching a bad ending in a movie).. my fantasy shall end here.. i thought, unless fate thinks i should be given another chance, he'll get down too. and my oh my.. you can guess what happens next. yes. he got off the bus with me! (ting ting ting! bells!) while we were waiting on the steps, i could feel his eyes on me.. ah.. fate..

imagine bus driving off.. zmoom.. i started to walk towards my right, hoping he's going my direction too, of cos i didn't turn around.. didn't want him to know that i had taken interest in me.. let alone giving him the horrible impression of a despo-found-target.. so i looked from a long shadow behind mine.. the shadows were casted in front of me, diagonally.. northwest. well.. my hopes sank when i saw no long shadows of the gorgeous man.. i was walking at snail pace.. and still no shadow of gorgeous man.. maybe.. he's gone the other way.

so i dug back into my book and read while i walked to the traffic light. nearly got ran over by a bic. and a figure cast over me when i was waiting for the green man. looking up.. i found mr gorgeous standing right there.. woah! wanted to pinch myself.. was i dreamin???

finally mr green man had his turn. when we crossed the road, gorgeous was the 1st to cross. it's like, finally i can ogle at him without him knowing.. i want to thank the land and transport.. that the road was 6 lanes.. so i had more time to ogle.. even better. he was walking in my destination's direction.. i am so glad.. but after a distance, he turned and walked into 7/11.. i had the urge to follow him and fake myself, yes yes.. i think maybe i'll get some food from 7/11.. but i didn't. i mean.. i shouldn't stalk should i?

and so my little fantasy, finally seen it's end. if fate allows, maybe i'll see him tomorrow, when i'm out with the girls. lets see what fate has in mind. heehee..

love reduces people to idiots..