my definitions

2006-01-31T23:23:00.000+08:00

moved. this blog is running too slowly..

tada.

2006-01-26T00:39:00.000+08:00

Paper World
The Thumb Thing
Book Manipulation Device

When I was a teenager I remember reading a science-fiction story which predicted that by the 21st century, information would be piped directly into the brain. In this story, a character encountered that most archaic object, an old-fashioned book, and felt appalled that people in the 20th century had been forced to endure so much physical discomfort, holding books and turning their pages manually--or trying to prevent the pages from turning if there was a breeze.
Well, here we are in 2006, and yet another science-fiction prediction has failed to pan out. While we're waiting for wetware implants, we'll just have to make do with a stopgap solution: A plastic thumb aid.The Thumb Thing$3Available from ABC Stuff
Manufactured by Thumb Thing
Posted on January 25, 2006 at 05:00 AM

2006-01-14T23:36:00.000+08:00

i saw this test on jo's blog. thought it was interestin. so heres the results. and i have to say. you girls. really know me well.

Intelligence

Intelligence is most important in a boyfriend/girlfriend. You like to be able to talk about everything that is on your mind, and if your partner can't keep up, well, you know. You are very attracted to someone who can challenge you, and make you see things in a whole new way.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

2006-01-13T13:00:00.000+08:00

some links to some landscapes.. try feeling rhe emotions that the pictures give you. :) its actually one of the easy assignments we have. try. tag me. see if anyone of you answers like the engine student did in my prof's film class.
we had a great laugh.

http://www.quantumsoft.co.uk/files/clipart/jpegs/Landscape_0025.jpg

http://www.mcps.k12.md.us/schools/forestknollses/Photo%20Journalism/Photos%20-%20Landscape/Landscape.jpg

http://www.mcps.k12.md.us/schools/forestknollses/Photo%20Journalism/Photos%20-%20Landscape/Landscape%20of%20a%20Pond.jpg

http://www.mcps.k12.md.us/schools/forestknollses/Photo%20Journalism/Photos%20-%20Landscape/Landscape%20of%20a%20Pond.jpg

http://www.pibweb.com/ross/tempnew/pages/landscape_ants_on_beach_pallarenda_castle_hill_n001113.htm

http://www.peterbolland.com/val/13/html/517-Landscape.htm

http://mailbox.greenwichacademy.org/~gina_nichol/AZ_pix/images/16_landscape.jpg

this is in turkey.. looks like a face doesnt it? lol. http://www.empressgemma.com/images/turgoreme.jpg

oo! gonna watch my prof's work~! so tata!

2006-01-10T11:41:00.000+08:00

had a cold shower on a cold day..

just wanna hide under the quilt with a novel in hand, music in ears..

escape from reality..

relax this holiday~~!! :)

2006-01-09T20:28:00.000+08:00

can they make shoes with better friction?
and the pathways?

seriously i've never knew singapore to rain ah meows and ah gaos like this..

its been going on since last year and forever.. no a sign of the blistering heat these days. water and those sloping paths (for better drainage so little singapore wont disappear after the storm) and those slipping slippers, shoes.. just dont go together. just walking back from school to hall today, i've slipped 6 times. was so glad when i reached the steps. railings.

anyway.. to clear any doubts. the last post. that city was built in the 1950s when nuclears were a thought of as like sort of armagedon. so the royalities built an 240 acres underground city as a shelter if there ever were to be an attack. this city. had its own bus system. railroad system. furniture in the houses. piping for water. everything needed to house a city of people!
all unpacked. the furnitures from the 50s, electrical stuff like the black and white tv, the telegram and etc.. where prepared for use, kept in crates. even the buildings where of 50s architectural style.

oh my oh my oh my. can you believe it? and it was kept secret all these years till recent years?? when the government or whoever.. decided that it will be of no more use and decided to auction this place.. this CITY off!?!~!@#!!!!! and can you believe they had 4 caretakes who lives in the aboveground normal world.. going down there to maintain those stuff?? and kept it for use? i mean.. these 4 people could have lived there and empired a city of their own! and who on earth paid them for this full time job?? so we can see.. whatever transparency their government had.. yea they didnt clean the windows properly.

anyway.. i need to congratulate my dear LPF's middle WOman. lol..

happy birthday suhui~! in japanese terms. u are officially adult! and today, you will wear the kimono, clap twice and pray at the temple to the guarding dolls. then there will be a party for you where everyone will congratulate you, toast you sake, presento moraimasu!
so a toast and a gift of well wishes. and an overdue party for you girl! free this sat? :) wanhui wants to come out and play too right?? lol!

oh and! the pageant.
tickets were going fast at the booth today! how happy i am to see the tickets "selling" out fast.. at zero dollars each! ahahaha.. pple asked if they had to pay for the ticket! i'm so glad they even thought they needed to pay and were willing to pay!! yippee!! and thanks girls! for the support.

oh and to tell y'all. i forgot who said they wanted the tickets. i've kept for 10 people. wonder if its enough. leave me a msg to confirm with me k?

suhui and kat.. and possibly eve.. thank you!!! my bunk is always free for you to stay over thursday night! and hui. its okie if you cant come.. keep it a secret.. i'm keeping one for you.. shhh.. haha!

procrastinating..
dont wanna do my work..

happy hari raya! to choco! haha.. miss you lah! miss all the crap we share! dont put on weight already! no more thin ershad! haha! you've got a chubby face now and a body to be proud of, still going to the gym? reporting that after not seeing you.. i've not gone to the gym. shall resume this weekend! :) cant waste those cloths in the wardrobe.

which brings me to this.. hui.... i need your help lah.. haha.. i'm sick of myself wasting all those cloths and wearing tshirt or polo-ts.

missing a things these days.. call me up guys!

2006-01-08T01:11:00.000+08:00

Or BRASÍLIA The definitive location where the city will be constructed is picked April 15, 1955 by the New Federal Capital Locating Commission (which had been created in 1953). Brasilia is inaugurated the capital of Brazil April 21, 1960. UNESCO declares Brasília part of the world heritage on Dec 07, 1987.

I sought the curved and sensual line. The curve that I see in the Brazilian hills, in the body of a loved one, in the clouds in the sky and in the ocean waves. -Brasília architect Oscar Niemeyer

Brasília is a utopian horror. It should be a symbol of power, but instead it's a museum of architectural ideas.-Art critic Robert Hughes

The impression I have is that I'm arriving on a different planet.-Cosmonaut Yuri Gagarin

http://www.wirednewyork.com/forum/printthread.php?t=4050&pp=50

OMG! an underground city!!!!!! kept secret for decades. my gosh.

i'll blog more later.. sleep now.

do ur own google on it

2006-01-04T02:22:00.000+08:00

hui. i m posting.

but its so late in the night and there's lessons early tmr.. i cant wait to get to bed after i finish my SP stuff..

the pageant is comin up soon!!
really lots of stuff.. i cant be bother to type this again.. so visit

http://su.ntu.edu.sg/up2006/

its the pageant website. free invites redeems ben and jerry's icecream and more.. and girls.
i'm going to enjoy this myself too.. haha.. FREE MAKEOVER!!! by anna sui and loreal.

and performances by project superstar sugi and chanel.. this years programme's not bad! i really must praise our vice-chair for thinking it up.

well.. i better get to sleep now..
dreading this.. i'll miss my sleep..

may the worries tonight.. be cleared tmr..

2005-12-30T01:33:00.000+08:00

just finished painting my living room and half done packing my own room.. and back from a bath after a stinking day of work..

but seriously. i slacked as much as i can.. i can still hear my mum saying.. you are so laazy! come and help now!

am going to paint my room purple-ish blue..

and one more thing. why is tmr the eve of new yr already????

2005-12-30T01:30:00.000+08:00

having my dinner at mac alone right now..and the only reason why i'm here is because they finally have something proper (rice burger) and i'm in a hurry and need to leave soon..

but i'll take my time to blog for a while.. after noticing that the mac forces is made up of kids. they are definitely younger than me! ard the age of 12 i think..so after being complained of slaving the elders.. i think they are moving their targets to the young. what's up with macdonalds??
look at their mac uncle and the burger-lar and the funny bird.. and the purple thing! they must be a bunch of sadist at work. can't they just give proper pay.. (not 2.5/hr) and hire proper ppl pf proper age?? whats with macdonalds? and can they stop adding water to everything? not just the coke and the ice lemon tea.. but also the 50c ice cream.

but the kids really deserve ard of applause.. good service and working attitude..

and i'm from vanyang echnological university.
notice.
that.
is not a spelling mistake..

a part of my letter N of 'nanyang'on my jacket was torn of by my playful senior who saw it flappin, threatenin to fall.. so he decided to do the deed.
then just now my dear T decided to suicide.. so i'm left with that..

gotta go now.. later.

(posting this 2 days after i typed it..)

2005-12-11T00:21:00.000+08:00

having the experience of being dumb for a day..

even if you are standing right beside me i guess you'll still have a hard time making out what i'm trying to say.. and every word that i say.. takes up more strength then usual. and it may not even come out right. argh. irritating. (ops.. that sounds familiar.. haha)

being dumb + screaming = normal talking level

so i've been screaming the whole day.. and now i've finally been reduced to whispers. (= being dumb + normal talking)

have you noticed that when people whisper to you.. you most probably whisper back too? even if you dont need to? haha.. reminds me of my mum.. when she calls me while i'm studying in the library.. she'll whisper back to me on the phone.. hmm.. i'm not good at explaining.. so..

phone rings.
me: ma? (whispers)
mom: why are you talking so softly? (normal level)
me: i'm in the library..
mom: oh! in the library ah? what time are you studying till (whispers back)
me: will be back by 5.. why are you whispering ma?
mom: cos you are in the library mah..
me: but you're not.. haha..
mom: oh yah. okay.. i'll call you later.. dont come home too late..
me: ok bye.
mom: bye. (still whispering..)

yesh.. oh and i think i forgot to tell you guys.. that my WHOLE family.. except my bro and me are already in china.. since the 5th.. so we are enjoying the whole house to ourselves. yay!

yesh.. and that i'll be watching perhaps love tomorrow!! so happy :) finally a movie that makes me wanna rush now to the cinema and watch it from the very start to the credits.. i'll review it after watching.. then you guys can decide whether you wanna watch. :)

voiceless.....

2005-12-07T00:17:00.000+08:00

my gosh. i'm not even 20.

but i've been walking like the granny down the street these 2 days..
the wonders of bending down..
and spraining my back in a split sec..
cant even sit properly..
this is getting irritating..

argh.

2005-12-02T16:52:00.000+08:00

caution.. this is the xiaoqi that everyone's not used to blogging.. so if you've had your lunch stay away. unless you are booh.. who can tahan this everyday.. lol.

bowling competition tmr.. everyone.. wish me luck! (good ones of cos..)

and ayl! the least thing i need is you staying away from me. ;p orders from your sassy girl. haha.. things dont always go the way we want.. and men are naturally stupid when it comes to girls.. and girls naturally become idiots when they are with the man in their life. dont say sorry le! you're makin me feel so bad.. make me wanna say sorry and hug away all the sad in your eyes. and dont do it purposely! or i'll slap you like jo. ;p dont dream of a massage. i have no idea how to.

and girls.. now that i've become this idiot.. please remind me with all the advice i gave you in the past.. that man are stupid and we've just gotta say it. thanks hui. :) zillions.

getting used to being with this stupid man who loves me and jellos me to nothing.. makes me wanna tell him those words that i refuse to say till he understands the importance of saying them a zillion times. MEN. HEAR THIS. WOMEN WANTS TO HEAR STUFF. SEE STUFF. haha.. ;p

its only been a week. had lots of first-time this week..

intoxicating myself with the song on kat's blog..

.buy me a rose.

He works hard to give her all he thinks she wants
But it tears her apart ‘cause nothing’s for her heart
He pulls in late to wake her up with a kiss goodnight
If he could only read her mind, she’d say…

Buy me a rose
Call me from work
Open a door for me what would it hurt?
Show me you love me by the look in your eyes
These are the little things
I need the most in my life

Yeaaah

Now the days have grown
to years of feeling all alone
As she sits and wonders if all she's doin is wrong
Cos lately she'd try anything just to turn his head
Would it make a difference if she'd say, if she'd say:

Buy me a rose
Call me from work
Open the door for me what would it hurt?
Show me you love me by the look in your eyes
These are the little thingsI need the most in my life

And the more that he lives
The less that he tries
To show her the love that he holds inside
And the more that she gives
The more that he sees
This is the story of you and me

So I bought you a rose
On the way home from work
to open the door to a heart that I hurt
And I hoped you noticed this look in my eyes
cause im gonna make things right
For the rest of your life(rest of your life)
And I'm gonna hold you tonight, tonight
do all those little things
for the rest of your life.

i can see the look in your eyes.. :)

call me dear and the words.. those they claim are the hardest easy words in any language..

2005-11-30T05:41:00.000+08:00

celebrating my 100th post!

woo hoo~!! champagne!

and to a whole new beginning~!!

WANHUI! you've gotta get used to it.. ahh!!! i cant get used to me being like that too.. haha.. but ahh!! haha.. wanna squeeze you and smack you in the face! thanks for being there always. :)

suddenly rejoicing in all lord has given. sorry i left my faith in the fridge lord. even if we are of different religion.. but he reminded me of you.. he made me able to pick up and go on. thank you lord. for him. for hui. for jo. for my brother. for my family. for hall 6. for everyone.

for eeyore. for the sweet dreams every night. for the smile on my face when i fall aslp at night.

praise the lord. he answers your prayers.

kat ah!! suhui ah!! jacko ah!! aiyo!! quick!! lets plan!! outings outings outings! no matter how busy i'm gonna squeeze time out!

and LPF! lets start! quick! :)

my gosh.. i'm so happy i cant believe it!!

love you dear! thank u for loving me...

2005-11-28T20:01:00.000+08:00

maddness.

so we thought after exams its time we can finally get some rest! sleep all we want!
so this was what happened since 25th.

WAH paper ended.
Prepare for steamboat in hall.
Had steamboat dinner in hall.
Celebrated CK's birthday.
Movie marthon.
Breakfast.
Use computer.
Took a nap.
Went out with Ayl. ( 26th nov..*grinz*)
Slept at home!
Bowling in the morning.
Rushed to Eliza's birthday chalet.
Met hui and jo at TM for breakfast.
Watched Prime.
Shopped till we dropped.
Concuss.
Blogging.

Total amount of sleep calculated.. as much as when i was rushing projects..

then when i thought i could sleep peacefully at home.. some union stuff crops up. sian. haha.. but seriously.. i had all the fun i could have.

btw.. what happened to the christmas lightings??? i remembered the atmosphere in the air when xmas was around the corner.. the different department stores and hotels competing for the best lighting award.. nutcrackers.. snowmans (or is it snowmen).. santas.. christian stuff.. christmas trees.. carols.. so much! so entertaining.. but now.. its pathetic.

went to see the lights on sat with ayl.. such a disappointment. esther. u're so right. the only think was this tree in front of paragon and lighted trees in GREEN.. ( i wonder what they are trying to do..) and road lights.

so dissapointing. i thought singapore could do better.. entertain and artistic hub of SEAsia?? theres still a long way to go.. first we've gotta get the city flooded with life. but i'm glad i saw the effort they put into esplanade. :) so many works to see. i guess i should visit there more often. free shows of works by locals.

anyway.. bowling is like my next upcoming exam. so i'll be training like a mad woman. just as usual.

eeyore's sitting by the lappie with me..

2005-11-27T10:28:00.000+08:00

just an informative post..
cos.. i'm lazy to say anything else..

so yes. the names aylwin.. (and i know you are readin.. stop smiling.)

check my the left scroll.. you'll understand.

nov 26 2005.

eeyore's name is not ayl.. :P

2005-11-22T19:15:00.000+08:00

oh and i forgot to add.. i wanna go see the christmas lightings! and take lots of pictures :) i havent done that before. taking pics with the lightings as background.. haha.. hmm.. wanna go wanna go!!

okok.. i better get to WesternArtHistory-ing..

god bless me..

2005-11-22T18:56:00.000+08:00

gosh.. is it winter already? in this ever summer country?

i'm freezing.. procrastinating at the same time.. 1 last paper to go and i'll be free.. at least academic wise.. for a few weeks! yay!

haha.. here i'm.. supposedly to research on the magnificent michelangelo's david.. and the paintings that have yet to fall apart after gazillion years.. and the greek gods that have happily lost a limb or two..

but everyone knows.. i'm not. actually i'm planning the hols~ haha.. i wanna do some stuff this yearend! i've yet to go to escape theme park.. and wild wild wet.. i dont really care that i've been told that its not that wonderful.. but i just love theme parks.. and sad to say.. i dont think i'll be going out of town this yearend..

and i'm also planning the venues for the mv shooting! woah ho! finally huis! we are going to start filming! i cant wait..

and i'll be resuming bowling trainings.. that i've neglected so much.. yea! cant wait to see the lanes and hear the strikes.. haha.. yes. i'm mad about bowling..

and i want shoes shoes shoes! was so pissed that day.. didnt get a pair even after i stomped down bugis.. heels.. flats.. shoes.. slippers.. my.. i'm dreaming..

and one last thing.. girls?
IMPORTANT!! LOOK HERE!!
leave a note bout your xmas wish k? maybe this year we'll do the xmas wish thing again.. we'll read someone else's wish.. haha.. and guess who it is.. but but thing is.. i need to know the top of your wishlist! cos i'm making gifts. so you want something you'll like.. then leave me a tag or message.. or anyhow. just leave me a note k? so the xmas eve gathering is as usual :)

and i really wanna meet up with jacko and tree and yan and xiew.. its been soooo long! really missing you guys.. :) lots of things to catch up on.. and jac? i've got happy news for you! finally! haha..

now its time i serve my time to the perfect male nudes..

WAH and you..

2005-11-19T23:27:00.000+08:00

ahh.. done. there. no more pink.

haha.

and yes. hui has tempted me into getting fane. yes fane. my little boy! so cute. so active. just feed him ok? the way he runs around.. i think he'll just wear off everything! lol

my blog's been taking a long time to load aint it? hmm.. wonder whats the problem.. maybe i need to scold blogger again. stupid blogger!

what if it was hurt instead?

cos he's so happy now..

but yes! 25th is coming and ending soon! there goes one semester! woah.

really wish i'm gonna be out of the XXXXX club soon and forever hui!
lol

2005-11-19T12:20:00.000+08:00

revamping revamping.. pls hold. cant stand the pinks anymore.. haha

2005-11-13T16:03:00.000+08:00

okok..

so i was bored.

okok.. not bored.. entertaining myself while waiting for sms replies..

Your Power Color Is Magenta

At Your Highest:
You energize yourself and push others to suceed.
At Your Lowest:
You feel frustrated and totally overwhelmed.
In Love:
You are suprised by who you attract. You're a love magnet.
How You're Attractive:
Open and free spirited, people want to explore the world with you.
Your Eternal Question:
"What is my next source of inspiration?"

What's Your Power Color?

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How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.
You tend to give more than take in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

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Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF)
You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.
You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.
You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.
Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.
You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.
Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.
In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.
At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.
With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.
As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.
On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

The Three Question Personality Test

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How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You tend to avoid confrontation and stay away from sticky situations.
You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.
You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

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Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.
You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.
People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.
But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

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You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

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Your Heart Is Pink

In relationships, you like to play innocent - even though you aren't.
Each time you fall in love, it's like falling for the first time.
Your flirting style: Coy
Your lucky first date: Picnic in the park
Your dream lover: Is both caring and dominant
What you bring to relationships: Romance

What Color Heart Do You Have?

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Your Birthdate: October 21

You're a restless rebel with an unpredictable nature.

Bright but unbridled, you tend to seek out wild experiences over new ideas.

People are frustrated by your great potential, but you love your unconventional life.

You're a heartbreaker. People get attached to you, and then you're gone.

Your strength: Your thirst for adventure

Your weakness: Not taking time for slow pleasures

Your power color: Hot pink

Your power symbol: Figure eight

Your power month: March

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

(but gosh.. i'm not a hot pink fan..)
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The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

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you're whipped because he's Sweet

Nice guys finish last? Not a chance if they meet a sweetie like you. There's not a thing in the world you wouldn't do for loved ones, and you wanna make sure you find a guy who's got his priorities straight too. Whether he's a bull-rider or a businessman, he'd better have a big heart.When you fall, you fall hard. And it's the little things that matter like when he opens the door for you, cooks you dinner, or leaves sweet notes in your pocket. Brains and brawn are fine and dandy, but he won't win your heart if he isn't in touch with his sensitive side. Awwww, how sweet!

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anatano kotoo kangaeru..

2005-11-11T09:18:00.000+08:00

ok alright. my monthly post for nov. lol.

well its 4hrs before my literature examination. i should be very hardworking on my knees.. praying at this moment. i dont know.. i don't know how.. i mean.. well.. its literature. just goodness sake pass me a pen. ok. maybe 2. (btw, i got a B+ for my lit essay.. wahahaha!)

well am i making any sense here?? i guess not.

well i'm not that worried for literature.. cos this morning is a bit different from the past 7 years.. (lol) a bit sweeter then usual.

ok. i should stop there. that doesnt sound like me! my gosh.. yucks. so mushy. ahaha.. jo! stop laughing like a thunderball right now! and you too hui! shh! haha..

yea. but nothing that special.. yet. haha. just sweeter.

well its not that him in my last post.. cos you knw.. things can happen in just a month's time.

so. wish me luck for my papers! waiting for godot to past through the sliding doors.. and bless that i'll do well.

all the best to everyone else having exams!

and please. TAG ME!! XP

breakfast.. lunch.. dinner..

2005-10-24T15:16:00.000+08:00

an eventful week it has been. slacking in my school computer lab now.. am suppose to go back to my room to study japanese now.. but i'm not (obviously) doing according to plan.. means i can prepare to fall aslp again tmr afternoon.

yes i was suppose to reveal my birthday wish on my birthday. but i didnt get a chance or the feeling of posting so i didnt. so too bad to those who still dont know what i wished for. actually i also PRAY very hard for.

oh and. go check out my wishlist! oh my oh my oh my! i must thank these pple so so so so so so so so much! it was the best gift of all gifts, but of cos the rest didnt do bad at all! no idiotic gifts this year, no "just a cup or photoframe", no "full of sexually connotations package". but loads of sincere "happy birthday" and gifts that i'll remember forever ( i mean as in as long as i can still remember things). so thank you esther, jass, kai, karl, chaowei, minglong!!!! yes. very delicious. lol!

actually.. theres another super nice birhtday present.. but that guy just forbid me to tell the world that he did it. so really thank you! even though i deem you a bastard. but all men are bastards. haha.. so thanks for the sincerely :) and the effort! no matter how easy it is to make.. its still effort! :) thanks.

well of cos i have to thank hui, jo, zhenni, the alvins (thanks for the cake and all the effort!! i really appreciate it!). my kazoko (family), k grppies, 06 peeps and everyone else who remembered my birthday. (though most of them knew cos i announced it to the world.. haha, so those who i didnt but still remembered.. a super big thank you!)

ok.. so this is a thanking ceremony for the award of the turning of 19. oh my. i'm still so young! haha.. i'm only 19.. still a teen but worrying bout adult stuff.. bish.

but i have one other side track birthday wish. but he didnt remember my birthday. until it was over. but was super nice to me. so hui and jo and esther.. you know what i'm wishing right? haha.

thanking ceremony's over.

delicious lazy pig..

2005-10-06T22:23:00.000+08:00

time flies..

how many times have i started a post with that? just proves how true that is. just a few more weeks to exams.. less than 2 months to the last day of the sem.

and 2 weeks.. nearly.. to my birthday. and my birthday wish? i've had it since day 1 of school, and it just gets stronger as each day passes by. but its a birthday wish so it'll be revealed only on the birthday.

wonder if i will have the time to celebrate it.. thats so sad right?

intoxicating myself with sad songs.

2005-09-12T18:07:00.000+08:00

sem break.

doesnt mean more time for work. means more work and more sleep. in the end.. the free time i have is still the same. only thing is that it's less stressful. i can sleep till 11 each morning then finally drag myself out of the bed. i can take afternoon naps.

i can enjoy my super-single sized bed at home.

2005-09-07T15:41:00.000+08:00

diabetes.. pardon my english spelling. but you get the point.

i was wondering how long will it take for me to get it. i stuff myself with sweets, gummy bears, candies.. sweet snacks everyday to keep myself awake in class. today itself, i've had 5 packets of gummy worms. all by myself.

i wonder if there's any other way i can keep myself awake with only 4 hrs of sleep everyday. dont tell me about smoking. i've totally no interest and actually i reject.. no.. condemn it. i'm trying to keep myself awake.. not shorten my awake-time.

suddenly i have nothing to say. think i should go back to work.

2005-09-06T11:48:00.000+08:00

this is a free 10 minutes from my lunch break in between the 6 hr lessons. well.. i dont really have much to update.. cos there's too much it becomes impossible for me iterate.

by one thing i must say is.. how in the world did i sleep (nemasu) at 5 am(gouji) this morning (asta) wake (okimasu) up at 740 am(shichiji yonjuufun) to get to school and still remain awake??

session is starting in 3minutes.. means i have to leave the lab. oh and if you were wondering what those (bracketed) stuff are.. its japanese. yes. i'm obsessed with it. cos i have a mid term test for it this friday. and i'm totally not prepared.

lets just hope i'll still be awake during japanese lesson later.

benyoushimasu!

2005-08-29T09:33:00.000+08:00

yes yes yes.. i know that i'm long dued for a new entry..

! its been nearly a mth!
this month hasnt been easy, but it was great. like i said bout school.. and of cos there's always that other fact involved.. *twinkle!* lol.

oh yah.. i said to explain whats going on in SADM right? ok.. so, tues i have fdn drawing, weds i have 2d drawing, thurs i have 3d drawing, fri i have 4d drawing. drawing drawing drawing and drawing.. and i seriously think i suck at it. so i really have to work on it. and that explains my MIA.. and the assignments.. there're so many.. its overkill.. whats sleeping 4 hrs everyday like? an SADM student as me. or even esther. or most of my classmates. everyone's slack of sleep. walks into the 6hr tutorial class just like we've stepped out of a grave... zombie like.

and if you didnt notice. i've changed the skin. and yes. lazy me aint gonna change the layout. just the background and stuff. my definition. if you've noticed my msn nick, its a definition. and has been so for the past few.

well the following is much of a reflection of ahwan's recent post bout LPF (my short for Lauphayfu). yea. and i really wanna get on track with it! but ARGH! we're so so so busy.. irritated.. if i ever EVER have an assignment for music video i'm gonna ring you guys till 3 am in the morning, and we'll get the butts moving! i still hope we can finish it before christmas so we can celebrate christmas together again.. and with the preview of the mv to the closer gang and our families! so can we pls book the time after exams for LPF? and can we get a proper name? lol. i really really miss this. this LPF maddness.

ok.. its time i get to work.

blogging (v) ; squeezing out the contents of the crap pouch. the length of the action depends on the amt of stuff in the pouch.

2005-08-09T08:47:00.000+08:00

0847 hr 9 august

sitting at my desk. (please be reminded that it's my hostel room desk) starting my 3D drawing assignment.

0851 hr 9 august

sitting at my desk, using the laptop (pls note that i have FINALLY gotten my notebook after 2 weeks of computer-less life) starting to type this entry.

0853 hr 9 august

decides to stop being funny.

well yes. i'm finally blogging again. i have so much to say for the past 2 weeks that i'm too lazy to say it all..
how's school been?
interestingly frustrating. frustratingly enjoyable. enjoyably busy. sorts of sums it up.

i'll tell you bout the modules and the classes..
some other time.

now i need my sleep...

2005-07-19T20:16:00.000+08:00

finally rested and back home after 2 camps. i had so much fun! and PVS! K grp! i LOVE you guys. gosh.. think of those stupid lame things we did.. the only time we can do such stupid things is during orientation. haha.. so wanna join the hall camp too. but i know better that i should just stay home and rest. (cos i dislocated my shoulder in uoc.. shh.. cos my parents should know NONE bout this)

so irritating.. that day i dislocated.. but can i be rude again and start scolding the girl who pulled my arm??! okok.. i shan't cos she apologised.. and well i screamed fuck at her.. so.. quits. yes.

well of cos that means no training for at least 2 weeks.. i wonder how i'm going to fake my parents.. well of cos my brother will help me in the act.. but still.. not bowling itself is a chore to me.. sigh. why why why.. i hate it when this happens.. plus now's rainy season.. so i'm suffering more.. if you understand what i mean.. aches aches aches.

now i've got to start packing for hostel.. what cloths to bring.. what stuff toys i decide should make my room hommie.. (ok yes. i'm childish.. whatever you say..) and the basic stuff.. i won't get my notebook till 2 weeks later.. so i'll be msn-less for 2 weeks.. but i'll visit the library to blog..

lazy to post the pics from the camps and write about it. and to those enjoying your hall camp now.. especially the hall 6 peeps (esther and jo) i'm super jealous! hmh. really.

no one wants to ask me about the guys i met??.. heehee..

2005-07-08T17:50:00.000+08:00

okok.. i've got to be fair to the author of my last post. he's osmos i think. he has it a super nice blog to read. click on the link to bring yourself there :)

well i'm back from the PVS camp and gotten myself a natural blusher. that makes me look like faye wong. at the same time i've brought back a new heater, radiates heat even in the aircon. well in short. i'm burned.

the camp was really fun. got to know people who had the skill in video-taping, editing, photo-taking.. blah blah blah blah.. and i even got people who were entu about joining the MV crew! cool! :)

next week i'll be gone for the union camp. 7 days and 6 nights. i heard that this time it won't be that shag cos we'll get ample sleep. and the hall people just called me. want me to join the hall camp too. that starts right after the union camp for another full week and ends right before the school starts on the 25th. but i said no.

i think i'm those type who's easily "conned" by salesman.. so after some persusion.. i succumbed to the hall seniors' sale.. to join the camp. but i've yet to confirm.

time flies.
i think that's an understatement. fly.. zoom.. ahm.. give me a stronger word. on the 15th, i'll be able to move into the hostel. gosh. i won't be home anymore. i mean. not that often. wonder how i'll do in hostel life. hmm..

this is a snake this is not a snake, but this is a snake......

2005-06-29T20:48:00.000+08:00

This is the first sentence of this post. This is the second sentence. This is the title of the post, which is also found several times in the post itself. This sentence is questioning the intrinsic value of the first two sentences. This sentence is to inform you, in case you haven't already realized it, that this is a self-referential post, that is, a post containing sentences that refer to their own structure and function. This is a sentence that provides an ending to the first paragraph.

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Introduces, in this paragraph, the device of sentence fragments. A sentence fragment. Another. Good device. Will be used more later.

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This is the title of this post, which is also found several times in the post itself. This is almost the title of the post, which is found only once in the post itself. This sentence regretfully states that up to this point the self-referential mode of narrative has had a paralyzing effect on the actual progress of the post itself -- that is, these sentences have been so concerned with analyzing themselves and their role in the post that they have failed by and large to perform their function as communicators of events and ideas that one hopes coalesce into a plot, character development, etc. -- in Short, the very raisons d’être of any respectable, hardworking sentence in the midst of a piece of compelling prose fiction. This sentence in addition points out the obvious analogy between the plight of these agonizingly self-aware sentences and similarly afflicted human beings, and it points out the analogous paralyzing effects wrought by excessive and tortured self-examination.

THE purpose of this sentence [which can also serve as a paragraph} is to speculate that if the Declaration of Independence had been worded and structured as lackadaisically and incoherently as this post has been so far, there's no telling what kind of warped libertine society we'd be living in now or to what depths of decadence the inhabitants of the USA might have sunk, even to the point of deranged and debased writers constructing irritatingly cumbersome and needlessly prolix sentences that sometimes possess the questionable if not downright undesirable quality of referring to themselves and they sometimes even become run-on sentences or exhibit other signs of inexcusably sloppy grammar like unneeded superfluous redundancies that almost certainly would have insidious effects on the lifestyle and morals of our impressionable youth.

This sentence, in a sudden and courageous burst of altruism, tries to abandon the self-referential mode but fails. This sentence tries again, but the attempt is doomed from the start.
The purpose. Of this. paragraph. Is to apologize. For its gratuitous use. Of. Sentence fragments. Sorry.

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This sentence wishes to apologize for all the needless apologies found in this post {this one included], which, although placed here ostensibly for the benefit of the more vexed readers, merely delay in a maddeningly recursive. way the continuation of the by-now nearly forgotten story line.

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This is the title of this post, which is also found several times in the post itself.
This is the last sentence of the post. This is the last sentence of the post. This is the last sentence of the post. This is.

Sorry.

2005-06-28T21:59:00.000+08:00

DANGER:
this is a boring post.

it's rare to see me blog almost everyday since i started buzzing around bout the As and then the SADM project.. then worklife.

then suddenly. i'm so free. no work. no school. i know this kind of life will end very soon in 2 weeks. but i'm still horribly bored NOW.

and the worse thing of all is my digicam just decided not to co-operate with my bro's computer and i can't upload pictures.

jo.. i need an idea of what you want for your blog so i can do the backgrd up. but i'm not changing the layout ok?

oh yah and once again. people!??!? can you READ THIS?! tag me for goodness sake. i'm bored shitless. and so is my tagboard. i need to thank suhui though. the only person who tagged.

i love lauphayfu.. and i'm sorry we can't film this sat.. stupid bowling. i better win some money.

2005-06-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

i've been bored.. you'd see..

You Are Strawberry Pocky

Your attitude: fresh and sweet
Comforting, yet quirky ... quietly hyper
You always see both sides to everything

What Flavor Pocky Are You?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

2005-06-25T13:19:00.000+08:00

oh and did i say? for goodness sake.. can you guys plsssssss TAG me?? my tagboard's crying bored!

2005-06-25T13:10:00.000+08:00

for the first time in my life i have an idol..
or you shd say a group of idols.

wongfu!!!

you can find their link on my blog.

so if you do see any similarity between lauphayfu and wongfu.. ahm. it's cos they're the inspiration. unlike x-quisiteproductions we ain't gonna put ourselves against wongfu, in fact i really would like to scream to the wongfu production crew a uber-super-big THANKS! cos if it aint for tem, i would be rotting at home and wasting the space that the ulead vid studio is taking up in my bro's computer, and not so up and going about getting my very own brand new lappie or pc.

oh well.. there's still this that i've to tell you guys.

noisesingapore is having it's noise festival in october 05! and it'll be held at Youth Park (wherever that is..) visit their website! www.noisesingapore.com actually there's lots of arts supportive groups in singapore like noisesingapore. i'm glad i picked sadm.

in any case.. the university orientations are starting! and only in 2 weeks time.. i think back to the after As period when i said, "i'm gonna slim down be pretty b4 starting uni life.." but here i stand.. on the weighting scale. and darnit. cos i'm still the same! lol.. guess i still be little old me afterall.

schools starting. and for the first time.. i'm not glum bout it. i'm excited. super excited. actually add that tat bit of scared in. cos this is something i've NEVER. really.. i'm not being woman and exgerrating.. it's really something i've NEVER done b4. and my brother for once can't give me any insight bout what's it's gonna be like, nor does anyone. cos we the pioneer batch, ichi, first, yi, number 1 batch to do such an unthinkable course in spore. the first. and very first. creativity course. WOAH! no more formulas.. no more standard answers. that's both cool and scary..

wonder how i'd do.. but then again.. not being the last in the class and passing all my papers is good enough for me.. making it to the dean's list.. i think that a jump for the sky, but no one did say that's impossible. i'm gonna work damnit hard (brings back memories) and may god bless me. and you guys too.

thanks to everyone who offered help to LPF..

2005-06-20T17:31:00.000+08:00

Your Deadly Sins

Sloth: 60%

Envy: 20%

Lust: 20%

Gluttony: 0%

Greed: 0%

Pride: 0%

Wrath: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%

You will get bugs, because you're too lazy to shoo them off. And then you'll die.

How Sinful Are You?

yes yes.. i redid the test.. the one before was horrible! much worse than this.. but who cares? it's just a stupid silly test..

antiboredom.

2005-06-19T15:18:00.000+08:00

ok ok ok.. yes yes yes.. ahem..

it's the unofficial start of the lauphayfu.. the wongfu girls.

and darn if i say i'm not excited! i'm so excited i can't say anything bout it. lauphay! let's not disclose anything at the moment.

but i do have this advert:

to talented and crazy guys out there, if you are interested to join the wongfu girls in their 1st production, you are so very very welcomed to contact either one of the lauphayfu.. in short.. TAG ME! TAG HUIs!

so enough bout the lauphayfu.. i'm back from hk! i didn't really shop much.. the weatherman was a bitch. raining all afternoon.. then super hot mornings and nights. but i did go to ocean park and that place.. or i should say road.. which is hk's mini hollywood. but the weather bitch didn't give me any space.. gosh.. i was half way through the path.. (after i found jacky chan's handprints) the rain hit! and all i could do was step on andy lau's and jet li's .. but i've got a picture of a young bruce lee in action! making his first picture by the hk coast! you'll get to see it later.. other then that? it was shop eat and eat and eat again.

then i've got another bitch to bitch about.. i guess i've hit my prime and i'm declining.. in terms of looks i mean.. i can't let nature and time have it's way! can i? no! way no... i'm gonna start to moisturise my hair and skin.. i'm gonna start using facial cleanser and toner and moisturiser, the samples i've from sk2. i'm gonna exfoliate my skin weekly.. i'm gonna sweat it out! and anyone? teach me makeup. i'm hopeless with even a lipstick.

can't go bad when everyone's getting prettier can i? (thought i'm just the cam man in wongfu girls, but who cares? i don't!)

maintanence is a bitch...

2005-06-09T14:20:00.000+08:00

blueberry puree and digestive biscuits.

guess what's baking?

oh and. leaving singapore for hong kong in 4 days. send me your orders.

a piece of cake..

2005-05-31T23:03:00.000+08:00

WHY????

why did i miss that miserable pin 5???

ARgh.

2005-05-30T14:13:00.000+08:00

have you ever done so?

lying on the bed, eyes open, willing yourself to get up, but the lazy brain refuses to get your body moving. and you'd just stare at the clock looking at the time tick past, thinking 'it may be time to get up'. but no doubt about it, the lazy brain wins and has it's way, not a single movement, you just continue thinking, and your body continues to.. well.. keep stationary.

it's like a battle between the don't-waste-time mind and the i'm-lazy brain.. meay be not. so it's a pleading mind and a i-like-it-my-way brain. cos when you finally get up.. it's not becos your mind finally overrided the brain.. but that the lazy side has satisfied itself.

does is all sound so funny? funny as in no-link funny.. not laughing funny. well pardon me. cos i just got up.

*grinz*

2005-05-20T23:00:00.000+08:00

i think i shrunk 1cm today.

that sling bag of mine. filled with gifts and my mug and magazines. gosh. i really think i shrunk today. i couldn't even walk. i was dragging myself all the way. then when i tried to race the green man.. gosh. i felt like i was in one of those lucid dreams.. i'm running, i'm running.. but i just can't get any faster.. and i actually walked slower than that woman 1 foot shorter.

ok. so maybe i shrunk 2 cm today.

and guys? am i disfigured? or do i have serious body odour problems? gosh. what's with the people at the interchange. am i so interesting? i no longer find myself a good-look.. but a horrible-sight. gosh. i hate it when the men like to turn around and look again. do i have birdshit on my head?

though i do like seeing that look on their faces when i finally stand up from my seat revealling my real height. taller. than them. superiority. something i still can be proud of. even after shrinking 2 cm.

well yea. talking bout the gifts.
farewell gifts. for moi.

sort of thought i'd miss the accounting for a while.. having a horrible scalp-scratching time trying to tally the amounts. then screaming YES! and feeling all energised after getting everything right. i think i'll miss that supersized calculator in avilyn's drawer and blasting aircon.

well i am missing the blasting aircon.. i'm sweating like a pig now.. the fan is of no use.

crap-pouch still un-fixed..

where's my missing screw?

2005-05-19T23:22:00.000+08:00

did i say anything about playing pinball on the 6 o'clock train?

well it's a better idea sleep-standing on the 10 o'clock train.

there's no way you're gonna fall. just lean back and sleep. or front. or on my sides. my. the space you're goin to get? hmm.. 30 by 30 cm.

or you could challenge yourself to a game of try-not-to-poke-your-paperbag-into-the-person-in-front's-ass.

i guess my entries are gettin from bad to worse.. i think there's a traffic jam blocking the mouth of my crap-pouch. let me try sort that out after i figure out driving.

did blogger mess up that pinball post too?

2005-05-16T19:34:00.000+08:00

people. in my laziness..

a nice read

http://www.angelfire.com/fang/chibiko/AOI_TORI.htm

2005-05-14T09:59:00.000+08:00

i had the sweetest and most wonderful dream i ever had in the past year.. (why did i have to wake up. ARGH!)

*sweet smile*

damn. i miss having you around to hate.

jo. don't say too much on my tag board!

can i live in my dreams? please!!

2005-05-10T23:36:00.000+08:00

Disney songs

can someone please get it for me??? pretty please? i'll pay you back with cash later. cos i ain't got credit card. please?

thanks! to whoever it may concern.

click on the link! ad free

2005-05-09T23:28:00.000+08:00

don't blame me!

blogger ate up another one of my posts.. and life isn't getting any less hectic. so pardon me.
i really don't know what to blog.. but since you guys seem to insist. i will.

ahem.. here goes nothing.

2005-05-02T21:43:00.000+08:00

hmm..

hmmhmhmhmhmhm.. hee *grinz*

WAHAHAHAHAHA! who prayed for me? i'm treating you to lunch the next public holiday.

go see my profile to understand what happened..

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

heehee.

2005-04-28T20:53:00.000+08:00

it's time for the town's best shopathon event!

let's shop! who's up for it? scream YES! jump! and call me right now!

i've got the cleo shopathon card, and i'm going to make FULL use of it! and labour day will be the day of shop-raiding!

the shopathon starts tomorrow and will last for the next 10 days. who's up for it? come on i know you are staring at the 20% and 40% discounts.. own up and join me!

2005-04-19T13:43:00.000+08:00

I'm not one to resist temptation..

how can i not come online when i'm facing a computer with proper internet access?! actually there's quite a bit of work to do.. but i haven't really spent my lunch hour up.. and i think i could really use a break. so yah..

the pictures are up if you haven't seen it for yourself.. i know i promised friday.. but hey! it's big improvement.. you didn't have to wait a month did you? there're more pictures but i haven't got the time to sort them out.. so for now it's just those.. you can request for any picture to be put up, but you'd have to wait.

it's only tuesday.. but i'm already looking forward to friday. gosh.. let me out of this place. i love the sun and hate the aircon.. sigh.. i'll have to get on with my work.. no more idling.. sigh.. i'm still looking forward to friday..

btw. have i told you? gotten a new phone. so guys.. you can call me and sms me all you want now. cos my phone ain't gonna die on me ever again :)

i forgot to quote so many times..

2005-04-14T21:58:00.000+08:00

i going to die!

AHHH!!!

gonna fail!
gonna funk!
gonna be riped off the chance to get into SADM!!

AHHHH!!!!!!

EVERYONE. i demand that no matter what religion you belong to.. pray for me. god bless me.. BLESS me impact bold and capital letters. arHHHH!!!

i didn't finish the fac test!!! did only 4 out of 6 questions.. and i'm only confident of 2. and what the HELL! i'm so.. so.. ishallrestrictmylanguage. so guys.. do me a favor just pray for me alright?

and i still have to go to work tomorrow. HATE IT! accounts accounts.. numbers numbers.. responsibilities.. going to client's placce ALONE even though i know nuts about anything but they still get me to do accounting.. and i have to fake the clients that i've got account backgrd even though a 5 questions accounting pop quiz would kill me..

and tomorrow is another HATED day which i have to go down to the client's place alone and finish the accounting and the report for it by wednesday.. which is very rush in fact..

and my stupid club bowling.. for stupid reasons are sending me out for competitions again. for goodness sake.. i'm not the only girl who can bowl in the team!! ARGGHHHHH! i'm so ishallrestrictmylanguage once again.

only thing i'm looking forward to is my bic-trip and sentosa trip with jac,ter and liesl. and that explains.. i'm adding a new item to my wishlist.. bikini top (with padding). oh and i've gotten the sims university expansion.

sigh.. jo.. can you grant me the kinda power you have? like after saying you're gonna die you'd do really well.

guess i should just sleep this off. and i'm not having PMS.

2005-04-12T10:20:00.000+08:00

Well yes.. I’m distracted again.. and typing on with MS word.. so if the symbols all come out funny.. blame MS.. not me.

I think I'm going to heck everyone's appreciated advise..
What I'm doing is called succumbing to temptation.

I'm going to get myself the X700 Panasonic phone at 438 at singtel. Whatever..
(I'm not thinking about the hole it’s going to make in my pocket. No I’m not.. yes I’m not..)

I'm going to stick to using the phone for at least 2 years I tell ya (that’s after I get the new phone). And I'm going to be VERY careful.. I will not lose it. I swear and pray to god. Oh lord.. please.

Well for those who didn’t know that I didn't know how to bike for the past 18 years.. you don't need to know it anymore.. cos I've mastered it. and in fact, I have a weekly cycle every sat morning now!

Talking bout cycling.. you know that I'm guilty of being a woman and everything.. so I guess you wouldn't mind if I start this again.

DAMN! I'm so fat!

Chocolates been going to the gym and he's looking better with each pasting day.. and me? I've been thinking bout the gym and looking worse with each pasting day! So talking to ershad that lunch and hearing say that he's going and trying to maintain going to the gym 5 times a week (when I barely manage ONE), got me so guilt-ridden. So I shall and I will! This time, I'll keep up with choco.

Hey. Why do I see that face that says there she goes again..
And why do I hear yah yah yah… you will.. in that tone called sacarstic?

Still I'll be trying, alright? (Again)

Oh yah.. and I've got a wish list in mind.. cos there’s so many things I see.. and I want.. but I can't just buy all of them.. but then again I still want them. Scold me for being materialistic. And I know it's nowhere near my bday.. but who cares? I don't.

So look out for the section. It should be up by Friday. And so will the photos.

Then again. I must say this all the time don't I?

Tag me.

2005-04-07T12:32:00.000+08:00

So sorry guys.. didn’t mean to join the ‘stop blogging gang’. But I really had no excess to the net.. cos the network in the office is down and my entries are all saved in the com at work. And there is no floppy drive... yah.. so here’s what’s supposed to be up last week.

Guess it’s about time for an update.. but then again.. I have nothing much to say.

But well I’m glad that 1st April’s over, no more worries bout the application to university.. that’s a burden relieved.. I’m so bored I don’t know what to talk about. Come on guys.. ring me! cos I’m so bored I’m gonna sleep the rest of the day off when I’m not working, bowling or eating. (oh an update.. I’m having the fac test nxt thrs)

That was of course what I did for my boring old Saturday..
Blame that rain that always comes when it’s not supposed to.. I was planning on a run round bedok reservoir with my brother on Saturday morning. but seems like heaven didn’t like that idea and cried it’s way to stop me. And now, heaven’s crying again.. foiled my plan to get my breakfast to munch at work.. heaven’s way isn’t it? It’s always heaven’s way..

So yah.. back to Saturday.. so bored old me.. and my bored old brother.. thought since thay’s heaven’s wish.. we’ll just go to sleep again.. so I slept all the way till 11am. Really bored, I went online.. no find no one online.. went to visit blogs only to find none of them updated.. checked my mail only to find junk adverts.. and newsletters.. and desperates on the lookout.. so bored ould me and bored old brother had a chit chat.. wondered if the alleys are open.. and we might as well go for a game and then if possible gym..

But heaven really wanted us to stay home.. lanes are not open to the public today. Great. So bored old me and my bored old brother went back to get our bored old sleep for the day. After lunch that is.. till afternoon.. that was when we went for a ps2 game hunt.. got a few new games, headed home to try them out.. stuck our faces to the computer until bout 5 when I had to prepare for my bowling competition on Saturday nights.. yah..

So with my mediocre mathematics standards.. I can still make out that I slept a total.. or I should say.. at least 13hrs that fine Saturday.

Call me a pig.
But that’s heaven’s will.

Well today’s a fine rainy Monday. Great for sleeping. But I’m at work -- well I’m glad that I actually can.. and I actually am.. slacking.. (lol). I’m on a need-list shopping this week.. although I’m a little short on cash.. but I’ll still have to make these expenses.. unless some kind (and rich) soul would like to relieve me of them..

A pair of proper shoes (sneakers?)

I can wear to country clubs.. cos sooner or later the guards are gonna chase me out cos I’m always wearing slippers to other CC to bowl.. and my dad isn’t very happy that he has to explain to the guards, that I’m here for competition and they need to let me in, all the time.

A new phone.

(I can hear applause.. and lots of people saying finally!)
Cos I’ve had enough of carrying a useless short-lived phone. I’m getting S65.. what brand is it? I don’t remember.. just that the phone has bluetooth and camera. And works like a normal friendly phone.. and won’t die after 3 phone calls..

Well if there’s anything else on the list.. then I’ve forgotten.

mm.. wow. Just I managed to churn out quite a bit of crap haven’t I? Even if it’s nothing entertaining.. I guess if you were as bored as me.. I guess this would do for now.

And yes. TAG ME. it’s just a few clicks away.

2005-03-27T21:22:00.000+08:00

ok.. i've gotten my 2nd warning letter from SADM..

okok.. actually i mean reminder letter to hand in my fac reqs.. and damn. i'm still in the midst of doing the video.

can someone shoot me?

there's nothing that i can't put to the last minute. great.. and what else.. i have unfinished work at work (at my uncles firm) and i need to rush down to dayspring to do the last and final rehersal.. which in fact i haven't gotten the black jacket.. and the grey one too.. great.

i'm in a big mess.. and i'm stinking from a whole day of bowling at a poorly airconditioned alley.. and it's nearly the end of the day.

by 1st april.. i need to deliver the fac reqs down the school personally.. cos i can't send it.. it'll be too late.. great.. need to take another day off.. that's like.. 7 days off in 3 weeks?!@!

fuck. sorry bout that.. but i'm really. really in a horrid state of mess.

do not. NEVER ever! leave things to the last minute.

sucks big time.

2005-03-22T15:10:00.000+08:00

i'm so pissed.. fine. how may times is this gonna happen?!!@!@~

ARGH. another post gone.. damn you blogger!

ok.. fine.. i'll try to remember what i typed.. but i can't guarentee any proper english or that i may be of any interest anymore.. cos i hate to repeat...

damn that blogger.. ARGH!!!!!!!!!

well.. here goes..

i'm slacking off in the office cos i've got a computer and internet to myself and i'm all alone in the office.. (which is not true as of now) and since you guys are not blogging.. i'm darn bored.. nothing to do online other than wonder whether if i should reply or ignore the mails in my friendster account.. which.. for once.. i'm finally replying.. cos wanhui told me to give them a chance..

hmm.. did i tell you that i'm working at my uncle's accounting firm? i think so.. i did right. but that's not the point.. i'm doing auditing and accounting these days.. even though i have no whatsoever nonsense background or any whatsoever nonsense knowledge about accounting or even econs. so great. tell me.. what's accrued expenses? current liabilities? cess? gabrabra-gabrabrabra-la.. and the crash course i was given was crazy.. for one.. my brain has not been operating in study/learn mode for quite some time.. but yea.. i'm gettin the hang of it.. and my job now.. is not less than anything called interesting..

i'm doing auditing for indochine (clubbers have any idea? the shareholder of madam butterfly.. and lots more..). and indochine is the shareholder of ELITE model agency.. which exist on the 3rd floor of the finance department (which is on the 4th floor.. and mind you.. there are NO lifts...) which is where i go to do auditing.. and the models get their pay there.. as in the finance department.. so they march in and out of the finance room that i'm in..

and all i can say is..

I'm FAT. SHORT. and UGLY.

elite models.. are truly elite models.. man.. they are flawless... no freckles.. not bone thin.. not to muscular.. just lean muscules, firm skin, hairless, bouncy cheeks.. gosh think barbie doll alive.. and less bimbo.. and their facial features are sharp and perfecto.. what can i say but they deserve to be models..

okok.. for those who are blur about the 2nd floor 4th floor thing.. which i did confuse myself with what i said too.. yap.. this is the layout.

1st floor is the bar. 2nd floor the restaurant. 3rd elite. 4th admin/finance. in a block like those you see in chinatown. catch?

well.. really.. i'm keeping to my diet.. i mean i HAVE BEEN keeping to.. not a matter of the future.. like i always say and don't do.. and i'm going to the gym.. which is i HAVE gone to the gym.. ok.. once.. and i'll keep to it.. ok.. i'll TRY to.. ya. cos i feel so ugly.. i'm going to use the sk2 samples.. which i've yet to use.. and maybe i'll try waxing.. MAYB only.. cos that's alot of maintainence to consider..

oh yah.. remember my new ear holes? i haven't cleaned them.. for the past 2 days.

so maintainence is a problem i don't like.

yap. getting back to work.. and if this entry cocks up too.. i'll hate blogspot forever and i'll change host.

shh.. no one know i'm slacking here.. lol

2005-03-22T14:15:00.000+08:00

great.. another post gone.. i really hate bloogspot..

2005-03-21T15:09:00.000+08:00

i've changed the skin. needless to say right? just had my BTT.. if i don't pass it this first round.. i have nothing to say but

i must be stupid.

keep close to the car in front to prevent traffic congestion..

2005-03-11T21:09:00.000+08:00

i want to KILL blogger!!!!

i typed a very friendly.. and super duper.. record breaking long entry.. and it's.. poof! gone!

damn you blogger!

summary:

i'm not gonna talk about my results again.. ABC, i'm glad. i can get into uni. that's good. not destroyed fure, so i'm getting on with life.

i've gotten these

and i regret it already.. cos of the maintainence.. hate it. and it'll only be for these first 1 or 2 mths right? if not. i'm fainting..

and these..

which are just samples... look at the size of it..

and i spent 600 bucks in 2hrs when i went shopping with my mum.. i deemed my mum dangerous shopping partner.

and i've left AIA.. working for my uncle.. and part-time at tampines isetan as promoter (however you spell that..).

yes. end of story.

damn blogger. BAD blogger!
@!#@%$!#$~

2005-03-08T23:48:00.000+08:00

memory cards HATE me..

first jo's
30 plus pics gone..

now dad's..
fucked up.. 175 pics gone..

i HATE memory cards..

reciprocal..

2005-03-08T23:28:00.000+08:00

choose 5

1

2

3

4

5

6

7

8

there's more.. but you'd have to wait.. tmr night. this time i swear i'll get it up.

oh yah. forgot to report.

ABC

not bad for me lah.. not time to talk.. elaborate later :)

2005-03-04T11:09:00.000+08:00

gosh. just one week. (to the submission of the fac req.)

heck that essay. i'm retyping it one last time. and that's it.

and i've got the photos..

and well it's just 10minutes right?! i'll finish the video in one shot. tomorrow.

and relax for the rest of the week.

call me kiasu. call me impatient. but i've alredy filled up the application form for ntu. and doing the one for nus now. and applying for scholarship based on cca.

wish me (the best of the best) luck guys..

no. today is not friday 4th or march. i refuse to believe.

if i blog later. then it's good.

or my room is a good jump site.

2005-03-02T20:42:00.000+08:00

i have two confessions to make today..

1:
i am not one to persevere in an environment i hate.
because. yes. i have tendered resignation to AIA! woohoo!

well i'm going over to my uncle's place to work. or maybe Dr. russell might just send me some good news of an internship. though that means less money.. *chik-king!* but heck that. i'm not in need of money.. i'm still a young teenager dependent on my mum for pocket money. so yes. bless the lord for my family. lol!

but really.. don't lilke the idea that i'm working for my uncle and getting pay for it.. and if i don't get paid.. i'll feel guilty for splurging.. maybe i'll get some sales work, those that kill your legs cos you've gotta stand 10 hrs straight a day.. and say those say few words till you'll repeat them flawlessly in your sleep. but then again.. maybe i'll get the internship, get little pay but love it.

2:
i bought
a pair of shortpants, $9.90/-
a racerback at ebase, $17.90/-
a boat neck top, $25.90/-
a pair of earrings, $12.90/-
(is that the price hui? i forgot.. btw, i still do not have ear holes.. and those earrings are for me.)
a pair of slippers, $6.50/-
if there's anymore.. i can't remember..

and i shall ignore that i went to the movies.. on a weekend.. had dinner out.. costing me at least 20 bucks in all..

and all that. in the last 4 days.

soMebody..
ShoOT meyyy......
(imagine the mask saying this)

i shall NOT spend anymore money on accessories and clothes for the month of March and restrict April to a hundred bucks! i shall NOT!

temptation come my way! i'll be hopeless at blocking it.. sigh.. and goodness, worse still.. the pay for feb is SOOOOO low! stupid AIA. glad i'm over and done with you stingy bastard. oops there. sorry. self censoring please. and i'm jobless! and i'm splurging! what in the world am i doing?!

oh gosh.. sigh.. i think i should just get over it. i mean i've spent it. no way i'm gonna get it by.. but it's still MONEY isn't it? argh.. to think i told hui to save her money. what a bad example i am.

i don't even dare to count whether i've spent my whole january's pay..

well. enough said.

bout the essay,
thanks guys. (and gals.. though my guys meant pals)

so should i be more formal? but i ain't good enough to be more formal and stay interesting. maybe i'll just forgo the muddlehead thing? and yes. i'm an ego head, learnt from my dearest brother. and you can't catch the link??? mm.. but i think i'll letting that stay put. can't think of a better start. oh if you didn't know, the essay question is "why should BFA accept you?" i've edited it a little. but it's still the same. posting it below.

grade it this time k? __/20, (i give it 13 myself..)

An egg rolling and tumbling on the table, as if it was struggling for attention. Trying to break free of it's shell, was a chick yet to be born. Looking at the scenario breaking out in front of me, somehow, I feel like that little chick, that little egg.

Headlines, "science student fighting for a seat for the Bachelor of Fine Arts", that's me. Though I admit my lacking in artistic background, unless you take primary school arts club as artistic background, but I will not concede defeat. I believe in the idiom, "where there's a will, there's a way", the exact belief that pushed me on to reach the top of the mountains and drove me towards being a top-notch bowler. A new target I will not miss: grabbing BFA, and failure is not in the vocabulary.

Oh and I'm such a muddlehead to have forgotten to solve the mystery behind the headlines. I've never really been a good writer or a fast one -- the reason behind not being in the arts faculty in junior college, because it would mean failure -- but my imagination and designing has never failed, they're in my blood. But yet again, I really haven't had a chance to design something to show off, unless you count designing the school team shirt and being designer of the class.

But it’s not just interest, I've been thinking ahead -- my career, and where I'll be deemed worthy. That internship in ARC studios, an architecture firm, prodded me into action to pursue my dreams. In that month, I dragged myself out of bed at 6:30 to get to work, but every time I step into the office, life was injected into my veins. Although work was tiring, it was enjoyable. Turning a dull rectangle into a sky scraper people would admire, crushing a piece of lined foolscap to make an exceptional design, those were the things that most scientists, lawyers, accountants would laugh at and call me insane for doing it. But to designers, those were worthy pieces of art.

I can't turn a blind eye to my interest, I can't just become an engineer to earn bucks and hate my life. This is the turning point, where the rock is refined to become gems. It's not just why I choose BFA, it's why BFA should accept me.

(word count 393)

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oh and there's no friday on my calendar this week.

2005-03-01T11:44:00.000+08:00

An egg rolling and tumbling on the table, as if it was struggling for attention. Trying to break free of it's shell, was a chick, yet to be born. Looking at the senario breaking out in front of me, somehow, i felt like that little chick, that little egg.

headlines, "science student fighting for a seat for the Bachelor of Fine Arts", that's me. though i admit my lacking in artistic background, unless you take primary school arts club as artistic background, but i will not concede defeat. i believe in the idiom, "where there's a will, there's a way", the exact believe that pushed me on to reach the top of the mountains to see the worthy view from the top of the world and drive me towards being a top-notch bowler. a target i will not miss: grabbing BFA, failure is not in the vocabulary.

i'm such a muddlehead to have forgotten to solve the mystery behind the headlines. my interest in designing has never failed. i've never really been a good writer or a fast one -- the reason behind not being in the arts faculty, because it would mean failure -- but my imagination and designing hasn't left me, they're in my blood. but yet again, i really haven't had a chance to design something to show off, unless you count designing the school team shirt and being class designer.

but not just interest, i'm thinking ahead -- my career, and where i'll be deemed worthy. that internship in ARCstudios, an architecture firm, prodded me into action to persue my dreams. in that month, i dragged myself out of bed at 6:30 to get to work, but everytime i step into the office, i felt life injected into my veins. although work was tiring (because there wasn't a day where you won't work more than the actual working hours), but it was enjoyable. turning a dull rectangle into a sky scraper people would admire, crushing a piece of lined foolscap to make an exceptional design, making sponge tree models, those were the things that most scientists, lawyers, accountants would laugh at (exactly what happened when i tried to invoke some creativity during my stay at AIA). but to designers, those were worthy masterpieces.

i can't turn a dull eye to where my interest lies, i can't just become an engineer to earn bucks and hate my life. this is the turning point, where the ore is refined to become gems. it's not just why i choose BFA, it's why BFA should accept me.

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that's my essay for the faculty req.. i've overshot by 27 words! i'll need to take it little off.. by the way, give me your MOST HONEST opinions (such as utterly hopeless, too personal -- which was what i was getting at).. correct any grammatical mistakes. ok. i'm off.. video's next. and i need MODELS for my photos.. anyone?

create..

2005-02-26T16:09:00.000+08:00

i must be despo. and even if i say i am. you are not to agree with me..

perfect start to a dramatic love story.

met at a busstop, gorgeously built standing at about 6 ft and a few inches tall with soft dark brown soft hair. gosh. that's a good combination. *drooling* wasn't anything posh, in plain casual wear carrying a backpack standing right in front of me in the bus-line. maybe it was the romance book i was reading.. or maybe it was that the boy was plain gorgeous.

well.. so as to not let him see me as a despo i kept my eyes on my book.. (the nerd who loved me) peeked out of the corner of my eye and meet his eyes..shy little me (do NOT contridict me) turn away almost immediately.. well i continued to read my book while waiting for the bus.

and finally the bus arrived. gorgeous boy jumps down from the railing, adjusts his backpack and strides forward. giving me the best view of his back. and i'm thinking already, can this be the start of a nice drama for my life? or it's just another plain old fantasy? maybe he has a girlfriend, though chances are high that he's single cos i didn't spot any ring on any finger.

somehow i got into the bus before him, double deck it was. i went upstairs, and muttering in my brain to myself that if fate says yes, he'll come up too. and oo! he was right behind me. what could i do but smile to myself? i took the seat behind the stairs where you can see everyone coming up. and of cos, i saw him. and having the smile yet to be wiped of my gleeing face, he looked my direction and smiled. sadly the bus was too empty.. (for once i hoped the bus was packed so he might choose the sit beside me) he sat in the seat behind me. i guess that's really good enough isn't it? i mean, i can think that he's thinking that that's a good seat to look at me.. (yes i'm despo but you are not to agree..) so while feeding my own fantasy.. i guess i just wasn't the type to go up and say, "pickup line". so i dug into my book.

when i reached my stop. my heart sighed (not really sad, it's like watching a bad ending in a movie).. my fantasy shall end here.. i thought, unless fate thinks i should be given another chance, he'll get down too. and my oh my.. you can guess what happens next. yes. he got off the bus with me! (ting ting ting! bells!) while we were waiting on the steps, i could feel his eyes on me.. ah.. fate..

imagine bus driving off.. zmoom.. i started to walk towards my right, hoping he's going my direction too, of cos i didn't turn around.. didn't want him to know that i had taken interest in me.. let alone giving him the horrible impression of a despo-found-target.. so i looked from a long shadow behind mine.. the shadows were casted in front of me, diagonally.. northwest. well.. my hopes sank when i saw no long shadows of the gorgeous man.. i was walking at snail pace.. and still no shadow of gorgeous man.. maybe.. he's gone the other way.

so i dug back into my book and read while i walked to the traffic light. nearly got ran over by a bic. and a figure cast over me when i was waiting for the green man. looking up.. i found mr gorgeous standing right there.. woah! wanted to pinch myself.. was i dreamin???

finally mr green man had his turn. when we crossed the road, gorgeous was the 1st to cross. it's like, finally i can ogle at him without him knowing.. i want to thank the land and transport.. that the road was 6 lanes.. so i had more time to ogle.. even better. he was walking in my destination's direction.. i am so glad.. but after a distance, he turned and walked into 7/11.. i had the urge to follow him and fake myself, yes yes.. i think maybe i'll get some food from 7/11.. but i didn't. i mean.. i shouldn't stalk should i?

and so my little fantasy, finally seen it's end. if fate allows, maybe i'll see him tomorrow, when i'm out with the girls. lets see what fate has in mind. heehee..

love reduces people to idiots..

2005-02-22T20:38:00.000+08:00

i'm scratching myself like some bug infested mammal..

damn it.

i'm getting baygon.

my whole arm is red pokka-spotted.. think i'm in need a doctor.. AHHH!!! so itchy.....!!!!!

kills, kills, and kills. baygon.

2005-02-20T15:08:00.000+08:00

went over to visit kat's blog. and all i can say is. i want to get a digicam. and of cos a new phone..

and POOF! goes my pay.

and another thing. i feel like quitting work and enjoy the last few bits of my 18 year old life. partying with the girls, shopping, going for movies, staying out late with the gals.. i guess i miss all that stuff..

and jo. i'm just saying it cos i feel it. and if you don't like it. don't read. don't listen. i can't control my heart or my mouth or my fingers right now. so. no black face please. had enough of it.

really.. i mean, the month of december was great. wonderful. splendid. though no guys no dates. all the girly gathering, outing.. life was GREAT. i mean i had one.

unlying meaning: not having one now.

i hate raffles place. every morning i feel displaced. every morning i yearn for the coming of evening. everyday i waste my time on my watch. and i'm losing the magic with the old bores of the click-clacks and suits in raffles place. and mind you. the click-clacks of raffles place is so very different from the ones in orchard or any other where else where people live not exist..

in raffles place. EVERYTHING. well almost.. everything. is robotically syronized. and almost colorless. no red, no pink, no yellow, no greens.. it's just black white grey beige nude blue... i think i might forget what colors are. maybe i'm becoming color blind.

i'm counting down to the end of my working days in AIA. counting to the days of colors, of music, of no more whispering..

in the meanwhile.. i'll enjoy my nights. cherish my weekends. and forget about mondays on sunday nights.

take me out! SOMEBODY!

oh and yah. looking for a gym partner.. stupid choco.. why do you live so far from me?! nevermind..

think i haven't told you guys...
my CNY resolutions..

be tidy (starting with making my bed..)
be careful (I will not. Shall not. Try not.. to lose anything..)
be a hardworking student and bowler
be fit and fab.. and with abs.. (gym peepz. GYM.)

well yep. finally i've come to term that i need to go back to the gym. i'm offically FAT finally. and girls will always be girls and always think that they're fat. so i confess GUILTY of being one of them.

yep. and this time i'm serious about it. it really is about time ain't it? can't let myself turn into a ball right? I'll get my big fat butt to the gym.. and i'm sticking to it. Well.. i think i will.. haha..

and oh yah. forgot to say another thing. i've been missing 06. for some reason. hope everyone's fine.

don't take life seriously because you can't come out of it alive.. hah.

2005-02-20T14:45:00.000+08:00

now playing: damage-forever

back to continue my due complaints. well not really. i think i've really complained enough. but before anyone think i'm offending you.. (though it was offensive) i just fritting my butt off, so pardon me, i'm just enjoying myself blaming others.

another "forest" fire. i mean in singapore. i can smell smoke from my house. and it's so fogging.. ashes floating about. gosh, good lord? can you save those trees and switch the sun to low mode?

well guys. i'll post the 5 photos i took for the SADM entry when i finish it here alright?

i've finally finished my essay. but i think so lowly of it. none of you will see it, except for my dear cousin stephan and esther.

i'm sorry for the lack of diversity of my blog content.. but realy.. my brain is flooded with this SADM and that SADM.. so pardon me.

oh yea! i found my backup of the lost post! god bless you!

well.. actually.. it's another complaining post. so.. bare with me. or skip it.

complainin' is an enjoyment..

2005-02-19T20:21:00.000+08:00

i'm back. (imagine that in arnold swas tone.)

my house stinks of baygon.

and well, yah, just wanna declare that i'm not at home now. not in the internetless office too. m actually at my cousin's place. she's out, so i'm taking advantage of her computer. hee.. sorry yah ah ying jie jie. hee..

well, for the past few days i'm commited numerous murder cases. both as assist murder and murderer. with baygon and my bare hands.. i've killed sooooo many off them. cause they are so desperately after me, kissing me whenever i sit down, stone, doze off, sleep at night, naked in my toliet. those freaking mosquitoes!

i guess it's the hot weather.. good breedin period for them or maybe their brains been burnt they're going crazy. i mean the mosquitoes.

and yes. i haven't been MIA.. really.. i typed in a horribly long entry, sumbitted it (bout a week ago?).. and the stupid blogspot kinda burnt it's own brain too. messed up my entry. that's so FINE.

and yah.

i found MOOD RINGS!!! i'm soo happy. and they actually work! i wear to work everyday (on my ring finger.. to feel attached.. and on my thumb when i'm out of office to declare that i'm available. and i didn't post about valentine's day? that's so great, cos i really totally forgot about it. hah.). hui! it works! changes from black to blue, to green, to yellow to brown. never seen it red though (red's anger. and my life now is so very emotionless..)

results will be out soon. and it'll be time for uni application. and good news for those engineering and science and blah blah blah students.. you just gotta sit there shake leg and wait for your results, and maybe go to church more often or the temple, or the mosque, or better.. all of them, then tada! good results jump up and cry. bad results cry and jump down. end of story.

and for poor little me, and the rest who has to hand in portfolios and stuff... we rack our brains and crap pouch and idea pouch to finish our application requirements before the deadline. and for amateurist me.. i have to go around asking all those design students, the school's helpline about how things should be done and worry shitless bout whether my work is too amateurist.. and not just worry, but prepare myslef for the worse case senario that i won't be admitted into the school..

*note: those who have gotten As, Bs, Cs for prelims.. not even an E in your prelims and still complaining about not getting into the uni. fuck off.. (i can say it in no better way). for goodness sake. give those who hasn't ever got A, B and Cs a break. if you guys are friting shitless.. should i go jump? (my room's a good location.. so don't try me.) i'm not saying that you can't worry that things might go wrong or get nervous.. but PLEASE. don't even mention that you think you'll get Fs and Os. unless you skipped a paper (which that would be ungraded) or did less than half your paper.. that is NEVER. gonna happen k? so for fuck sake. stop friting...

gotta run. continue later.

rudeness..

2005-02-11T21:09:00.000+08:00

i'm back. finally. haven't really have anything in mind to say.. only that i've changed my skin, which you can see for yourself.

as for the music. i'm taking it off.. think many of you find it irritating.. and so is the cursor. so it's gone with the wind.

oh yah, forgot to say. happy chinese new year peeps! wan si ru yi! (that's chinese choco.)

nothing interesting happening.. and even if so. i've forgotten.

everything that's exciting is preparing my faulty requirements. so sorry, till i finish what i need to do, you'd be see much much much MUCH less of me. sorry!

and oh! my, forgot to ask..

when did i get THIS old?!!?!

when my relatives visit.. they keep asking me, "shiqi, do you have a boyfriend?" as if waiting for me to say yes, when my reply is "no." and a slight smile on my face.. i'm not a good narrator.. so let me show you the conversation.. which of course went on in english.. i mean chinese

[aunty] shiqi do you have a boyfriend?
[moi] haha no lah. cos not..
[aunty] really? have lah.. must be..
[moi] really.. don't have lah..
[aunty] aiyo, your elder brother have girlfriend loh..
[moi] *smile*
[aunty] both of you have grew up! about time le!
[moi] *smiles again* hmm. yah.

so. i thought this was meant for the 20 plus singlets and 30 plus unmarried??? so why am i.. oh.

ok.
forgot.
yes.

i'm ishallrefrainmyselffromusingthisword 19. not yet. but this year. and that's just one tinny weeny step to 20. and why don't i feel a tinny weeny bit happy? *tries smiling*

DAMN. (no other word serves a better expression) i feel OLD. there goes those crazy teenage years.

time sure flies!
not that i'm so cocked-eye not to have noticed.. only that i remember so clearly when i told my cousin that she ain't old when i was 15 and she was 19. and here i am now, complaining that i'm old myself. great.

18 a flower, 19 a dead one.

2005-01-27T21:27:00.000+08:00

so i'm finally here.. only because i've finally taken a break from Suikoden IV on the PS2 to panick about my faulty requirements and to email SADM and a few animation/advert companies in singapore to see if i can get a job or an internship in their companies.

something to look forward to, other than 1145 and 1730 everyday.

well yea. i'll finally tell you about the school. it's the School of Art, Design and Media. (did i tell you before?) well.. basically, it's NOT Communication Studies.. and you'd graduate with a Bachelor of Fine Arts from SADM.

It's a school which wants to cultivate designers, artists and animators. but i'm not the kind who likes to elaborate. so go see for youself.

www.ntu.edu.sg/sadm

i'm suppose to sumbit a 10min video, a 400 short essay and 5 photos. and results? as long as you can get into ntu. oh yah. and there will be a faulty test. so i'm busy thinking bout those now. so i'll be boring. so i'll stay away.

just hope that my soul isn't eaten away by the job i have now.

can't wait for payday and CNY.

and i will. absolutely. FORGET. valentine's day.

yep.

darn tagboard. i can't see nothing.. btw, tag me.

2005-01-15T13:15:00.000+08:00

why does the html work on my computer with the notepad.. and not with this idiotic blogger?! it worked when i posted it in the blogskins and previewed it. why not for this blogger?!

i'm pissed. and i have a big ankle in white. the doctor told me to stop walking about.. whatever.

oh. tell you guys about SAD&M soon.. it's not sadam by the way.

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2005-01-11T20:41:00.000+08:00

my taggie board is bored.. tag please!

oh and i'll be changing the template soon. getting sick of it.

tata.

2005-01-07T22:10:00.000+08:00

my job is so artistic.

first you learn to cut shapes with scissors on paper, then you learn to glue into brown envelopes. second you paste 400 stickers for an hour everyday.

art and craft lesson i should say.

and i learn so much about maths everyday.

i learn about the numbers in you identification card, the numbers in your salary and pay-rise percentage and your policy number. and i learn that you lose your ability to count as you grow older, cos people seem to think that 61315 comes after 61316, and that 60055 and 60550 is equal.

ok.. so let me first apologise for the very delayed blogging..
but hey. i gave warning, didn't i?

today's the first friday night after i've started work. how sad that i'm not going out with a date or hanging out with pals. but well, nora roberts worked well for me as my companion.

well if you didn't notice.. let me point out to you that my unkymood has changed (finally..) to BROKE. cos i really am.. and want to know the reason?

well, here goes nothing. but embarrassement for myself. great. okay, i'll start. on this fine thursday morning.. i woke up prepared myself for work, and since i had 5 minutes, i decided to call out nora robert for company. in the end, i wasted ten, and i was late for the bus to meet Jo and her mum.. and also worried about being late for work.. so i hopped onto a taxi to get me to bedok so i did take the train from there to raffles place so i'll neither be late nor broke. but after 10 minutes on the taxi, and i was nearing the station, i couldn't find my purse. left it at home with nora roberts, great.

in short, reads: got on a taxi without money to pay and stuck in the middle of nowhere.

but lucky, jo wasn't on the train yet and the taxi uncle was such a sweet sweet man, who offered to drive me to raffles place knowing that i would have the bucks to pay him, but would pay him afterwards.. ( but then i'd be VERY broke..). then he kindly excepted the alternative which was to get down at tanah merah. have jo pick me up, and he did come by my area (around my house i mean..) to get the 6 bucks. that was a hell lot of money to pay for sitting in the taxi calling my mum and jo up.. with my mum going on and on and on.. and the meter going on and on and on.. nagging me about how i'll be able to get things done in the future with this scatterbrain of mine.. and unknowning she's getting in my way of trying to getting something done and over with. and so. the taxi fare was 6 bucks. and, damn, was the train ticket expensive.. 2.40 to get me there, and 2.40 to get me back.. and my lunch was the 70cents beehoon that i bought with the deposit i got back from the train ticket.

so all in all.. i spent 11 bucks that day.. and since i topped up my card on monday, and my mum's on tuesday.. that means 20 bucks down. and i only had 30 bucks for the week, 10 for emergency and only wanted to spend 20.

so. i'm broke. no bar, no cafe, no nuts. give me a coffeeshop, and an uncle who makes 50 cents coffee.

oh and if you didn't notice the change in the music.. it's brandy singing almost doesn't count.

and i think it's about time i get back into the battlezone. men. please. get in my way. but nothing serious at the moment. cos i don't like i'm ready for that. just fun and good times and company. cos nora roberts is making me itch for some.

enough of a long entry? though i haven't told you about my climbing trip and my holiday with my ENTIRE family, and the christmas chalet and the new year's eve night in... can't be bothered.

oh and siew, borrowing a phrase from you.. if anyone brings me out (and pays for it ) for movie and dinner (or themepark would be nice too..), i'll love you for a week. ok.. a month. both sex allowed.

LOL..

alright. i better get back to nora before i forget where i left her.

money talks...but all mine ever says is good-bye...

2004-12-27T16:20:00.000+08:00

how bored can you get?

EVERYONE is working.. or at school or hanging out with their mates, while I am stuck at home with nothing to do at home.. and my brother is playing the sims.. and my parents have started their tuition and i'm suppose to NOT walk around the house because they are having tuition.. which is in the middle of my room and the REST of the WHOLE house.

so great. i'm here on a complain streak.. 'cos i'm really bored and i CAN'T do anything except waste my time.. GREAT.

and the movie 2046.. isn't much of a help.. it's the most BORING movie i've seen in my entire life! it's one of those movie in which they try to make the film sound, look deep.. but it's all so fake that's it's shallow. and actually.. it's the worst of it's kind.

but i'm not here to do a movie review. and can someone get me something to do?!???

ARGH..

and tell you what.. the stupid AIA, though having confirmed that i've got the place for the FIFTH time... and told me they would send me the letter of appointment by 30nov, then 12dec, then 18dec, then 22dec, has YET to send me the stupid piece of letter which i MUST recieve by 2 jan or i won't know what to do, where to report for work! stupid inefficient idiots at work. being busy is NOT a valid excuse! i mean, it's just a stereotype letter.. how much time do you need?? argh..

irritating..

and another thing.. almost everyone has stopped posting.. and tagging.. my board is so lonely.. PLEASE!! tag me.

boredom can kill

2004-12-21T19:41:00.000+08:00

well my obsession with the sims2 has finally faded out, reason being, i'm preparing for the upcoming christmaas party, that starts 23rd, ends 25th. so yah..

i've been washing, painting, finding recipes, trying them, getting presents, coming up with ideas to embarress my brother and making decorations.. and i even got a small LIVING christmas tree!! and since it was the last on the shelf.. it's not really the nicest looking tree.. well it resembles the leaning tower..

so you get the picture.

well, i've got some of my grad night and climbing pictures. lazy to post.. tomorrow k?

2004-12-17T19:13:00.000+08:00

you can kill me for mot blogging.. and i'll kill you if you drag me away from the sims2.. i'm hooked. addicted. give me a stronger word..

infatuated with the sims2.

woke up at 7, cos wanhui said to go to gym/swim that morning.. but we didn't in the end.. then i read lola comes home till i took a short visit to dreamland and ultimately.. i was dragged by my brain to the computer. then double click. the sims2.

and other then meal time.. i'm taking a break from the game now. and why? because my mum warned that i''m going to burn the computer (my brother's, this is my dad's).. and that i ought to bathe now.. and if you have no idea what the time is.. it's 7pm. 1900hrs.

yah. that's why i'm agreeing with my mother.. and i'll do this entry before i bathe.

ok. so i shouldn't bore you with my sims2 adventure.. so.. actually.. i've nothing in my head right now, other than the sims2. so great.

end of entry.

get me outta the house..

2004-12-15T21:19:00.000+08:00

oh ok.. sorry.. i didn't again that day.. nor did i post the next.. but i have a valid excuse..

sue the makers of the sims2.

not me ok? cos they've got me hooked on to the game i can play a straight 6 hrs.. eat my meal and run straight back to the game.. they are the mastermind behind this.

ok.. not funny..

well people.. i think i've finally given up feeling fat for this period of time.. because, i'm not buying cleo, elle, style, shape.. or anything of that sort and i'm not going to orchard or anywhere flooded with beautiful babes with slim arms.. long and thin legs.. have a waist that you could wrap with one arm.. so i'm not fat.

cos fat is relative..

and relative to my mum.. i'm THIN. so till then no more gym and diet and fat in my vocab. it'll be eating, pigging out, potato-coaching, the sims2, internet and of the grand-est of the grand.. de BED.

and before AIA.. i will enjoy the best break i'll ever have..

oh! don't mistake me.. before AIA does not mean one bit that i'm going to get an insurance policy or save up for one, or getting back my money from one.. it means i'm going to that boring AIA building in raffles place after 2005 new year to working with boring uncles and aunties.. and type like crazy and file like crazy and hate the computer when i come home.. and i'll blog lesser than less.. soo yah..

till then people..

whisper: e a games.. challenge everything..

2004-12-13T11:54:00.001+08:00

i. m. sooo. very. sorry!!

i'm back! finally!

well.. straight after As, i went climbing! in dabong town, kelantan. Gunung Ayam and Stong. sooo fun!!! 2 girls and 10 guys, and the waterfalls are sooo cool!!!
ok.. i'm mad..

and unexpectedly.. i did de most exciting thing of my 18 years of life.

i fell down a waterfall.

well.. not on purpose. was domino-ed down. pal1 fell n pushed pal2 who pushed pal3 who pushed pal4 who pushed me.. who was on the edge. LUCKY me.. all i got was a sprained ankle.. and i actually continued climbing with a big orange-sized ankle for 9 hrs the next day. and another 3 the other. cool.. and i had an infection on my feet.. couldn't walk properly in my shoes. and cuts all over my leg.. due to the thorny tropical forest bush.. and on one of the nights, the tent leaked rain due to a 6hr rain..

but still.. i LOVE it!

oh and after that.. i shopped 3 days, straight in a row with my big fat ankle (well.. i wore sandals..) for grad night.. and gosh.. i hate spending money.. and shopping.. and being on my feet from 10 to 6.. but grad night was great. (even though i wore 3 inch heels with my sprained ankle..) think i took tons and tons and tons of photos.. haha..

and after grad night.. i slept a full day.. (cos i reached home at 2 and i was totally shagged out, as in tired.)

then the next day.. i went malaysia again.. a family trip with my family (ok.. stupid me.. of cos it's with my family.. lol..) and i only just came back yesterday night. and i STILL have a swollen ankle.

so m i forgiven for this very very very long delay?

i better be.. 'cos i'll type more tomorrow.. (or later..) and i'll be putting up photos and an entry to complain about my fattness AGAIN. yes. because.. i REALLY am FAT. i'm convinced.

pass me that X-fat. i know that stick-figure fann wong (don't kill me.. cos it's the TRUTH. she's too thin.. even though i envy her thin-ness..) lost 3 percent of body fat. HA. well i need to lost 30 percent then.

k. later people.

good looks only hinder the way to getting nowhere in life..

2004-12-05T22:44:00.000+08:00

let me tell you a cinderella story..

once upon a time, there was a girl named, utaki-rella, she was the 'maid' of the family. one day, she was transformed into a cuteisy looking girl and was sent to a ball with an order that she must abite by, at the strike of 12 she'll have to leave the ball. and everything will be back to normal, she'll lose her shoe and wear slippers instead.

well yes. quirky little make-no-sense story there. well that's moi.. tomorrow's graduation night. i've got a hair cut (i'll post my pic as soon as i can) and i look..

different!

everyone says it's nice and better and cute and sweet and blah blah blah.. but still.. when i wake up in the morning and look into the mirror..

WOAH! who's that?!..

ok.. it's me.

that's the thing.

and about the 12 midnight thing.. my parents have come to terms about the time i should go home.. or rather they will pick me up. which is 12 midnight. sharp. no later.. maybe earlier.. that's my parents for you. but i still love them :)

and the shoes.. for your information.. if you haven't aready know that i have a sprained ankle from my last post.. yes.. this sucks. i'm not going to give up wearing my heels.. so heck. i'm wearing it! even if it will kill me.. and i'll look like a penguin.. waddling.. limping. still..

I. am. wearing. my. heels.

3 inchs. and by that, my height will add up to 6ft 1in tall.. WAHAHA.. most guys.. sigh.. will be shorter. great.

oh yah.. and i still haven't told you about why i'll be losing my shoes.. cos i'm bringing slippers to change into.. i don't want to kill myself by far..

i'm due for a sleep.. 'cos shopping with a bad ankle sucks. shopping a straight 4 WHOLE days with a bad ankle.. S. U. C. K. sucks a hell lot. so ha. i'm going to sleep update about the trekking and the shopping trips.. will have to come later.

oh and.. i'm sorry that there's no prince and fairy godmother and blah blah blahs in the utaki-rella story.. but heck. told you it's a makes-no-sense story.. so. haha.. no comments.

will type another proper entry soon enough. and siew. your cam. thanks. :)

and at 12 midnight.. cinderella will end her ball..

2004-12-01T22:38:00.000+08:00

i'm back, i'm back, i'm back!!!

and i did the most adventurous thing in my entire 18 yars of life... i fell down a waterfall and i climbed stong up and down it with a sprined ankle that looks like an orange now.

lazy to type more.. and it hurts to type 'cos of all the thorn cuts on my hands. will upload the pics soon and tell you guys for details.

and o6. wanhui thinks you guys ROCK!

and well.. another reason for not telling you more today is.. THE FINALS of the singapore IDOL!!

TAUFIK!!!

i actually spent 50 cents for him. great. it's back on.

soon. tomorrow!

2004-11-16T18:25:00.000+08:00

god.. i did THE most enjoyable thing graduating students do. BURN papers.

GP? throw. Food Chem? throw. Maths? throw.

well.. not really, i didn't burn them, but i did throw them all into the bin.. and by this friday, i'll only be left with physics. GREAT!

well i'm dead beat even though the only walking i did was to the hall, in to dad's car, to the lift and dreaming that i was walking. other than that i've been DE most lazy lazy-bone. and even though i haven't working as hard as a bee.. i still feel dead beat.. must be the crazy rush during exams..

and if you haven't noticed.. my past post are ALL about exams.. shucks. sorry to bore you guys with this kinda stuff.. but i really have nothing on my mind now other than this. and since very one else's blog is stagnant.. the only way i can entertain myself is blog. and since i have no crap.. i'll BORE you with my A level report.. haha!

counting down to Nov 25. and Nov 27.

bare necessities: if you're working like a bee.. you're working too hard.

2004-11-09T20:25:00.000+08:00

the following text is in chinese. so if you can't see anything that makes sense, you should understand that you need to educate your computer chinese.. oh.. but that excludes chocolate.. since he takes "HIGHER higher chinese".. haha.. not discriminating alright? just felt like it.. getting in touch with my mother tongue.. which i've forsaken since after last year's chinese paper.

so here goes nothing.

心血来潮, 不知道为什么突然想用华语,但就是想用我这烂透的华语,所以读者们请别见怪. 今天又考完了一个数学试卷.下一个试卷是一个星期后的事,所以我今天可以放个"假".

说真的,用华语blog..怪怪的..再加上我已把我的华文抛到九霄云外去了..而且用电脑写华文也是好烦呀!

不写了!我也只不过是在浪费时光吧了..

enough.. speaking chinese is a whole lot easier than typing.. and what's the problem with blogspot?! i can't delete!!! --> look at this junk.. (bbbeasil) thats what i can;t.. shit.. can't delete..

argh.. not typing more.. no crap today.. did maths and really in need of a brainless activity.. like sleeping.. eating.. and potato couching.. there i go again..

no quote today. says brainless

2004-11-08T13:25:00.000+08:00

another short report..

CHEM PAPER 3's OVER!!! yippee!!

*burning food chem notes*

give me 2 more weeks.. and i'll get down to typing..

and yes siew. i'm studying (^^P)

2004-11-04T20:11:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO!!! gp's over. i have the honor to demolish the gp blog!! great!

ok. that's all i wanna say. going back to study chemistry.

p/s: i sneaked playing sims 2 today! (well actually everyday.. but a while only lah.. god forgive me and bless me for my papers!!!)

2004-10-27T10:10:00.000+08:00

actually i didn't really want to post.. but just to be fair to everyone who's still coming to my blog, like i go th theirs on a daily basis.. i guess.. i will. not that i've become crapless.. or nonsense-less.. it's just that for the past 5 days.. i've studied in total.. less than 20 hours.. and i really fell so darn guilty.. and although i always try not to talk about school.. heck that. cos i'm gonna rant all about the As.. actually not.. it's about me towards the As..

i keep thinking in the morning, "do i have a paper today? am i missing a paper? oh no! it there really a paper today? if i miss one.. the whole subject is forfeited.. and i only have 3! oh no! gosh!" *panick*

gosh.. is chem prac today or tomorrow? gosh.. did i flip m calendar? is there chem prac today?
oh gosh.. can anyone confirm with me that i'm not missing any paper today?! gossh... i'm going CRA-EE-ZY!

either that.. or i'll eat my way through the day at home.. not doing any last minute study.. or revision.. or do papers.. and worry myself again.. "oh no.. i've only a few more days! 1 week.. i'm still not studying at least 6 hours a day.. and the teachers say if you don't you'll get what you get in prelims.. oh no! i can't get all Ds or Cs!! oh no! study.. better study" then i look at the books.. "AHH!! can't get to studying.. change subject.. AHH!! still cannot.. change again.. AHH!! gone case.. study later.. 1 hour later.. must! STUDY!" then i go to the kitchen and pig out.. then 1 hour later.. the same thing happens. great.

so that's why i'm freaking out here.. worrying for nuts..

but i know it's useless to worry about NOT studying.. at least when you're worried and you're studying.. you get something outta it.. goodness..(jason.. sorry i copied this outta my reply to you.)

oh yah.. i'm also going nuts about the sims 2.. not that i'm or anything.. i know the games' been out for sometime.. but.. i just can't get my hands on it.. and i keep reading reviews.. starting it was just interested.. then it became can't wait.. then it became why don't i have it? then now.. AHH!!!i'm going CRA-EE-ZY! I. WANT. IT. NOW!!!!

can i have it please?!!!
wow. wow. wow.. so much better!! the features.. the architectural freedom.. material freedom.. social freedom.. soon we'll be creating another dimension!! goodness.. aH!! get me the game!!!

well.. calm down now.. my dear cg rep has kindly lent me the cd. YIPPEE!! can't believe i'm thinking about a pc game in the midst of an examination period.. whatever..

please be warned that the sims 2 will keep me away from blogging.. so i'll not be blogging for quite sometime after i get my hands on it.

and i've added a link to the sims2 webby.. wanna see it? go to the junk section. oh.. and i've found some nice webbies to read.. they're much like blogs.. stories.. whatever.. it's interesting. so you can waste your time there instead of here at my staling blog..

k then. till next time.

the net is a waste of time, and that's exactly what's right about it..

2004-10-22T09:40:00.000+08:00

let me tell you the joke of the day.

almost everyone remembered my birthday except my closest pals.. ok.. maybe they didn't forget. just that they were damn late.. and guess what? some even had the cheek to tell me what i enjoy.. since it's that way.. i shouldn't waste my breathe on it.

well! yesterday started with flooding of my handphone inbox at 12 am. haha.. thanks people! and lotsa people whose number i've lost.. so i had finger exercise typing, "thanks! you are?".. guys.. i'm not trying to be ungrateful.. but i really lost my phone sometime ago this year (like always..).

and YES! my lovely chocolate (goosebumps for ershad.. lol) acknowledged me, his girlfriend, yesterday! WAHAHA..

and if i don't mention this.. someone's gonna say i'm soo very ungrateful.. thanks bestfriend! well.. by that i mean CG (not center of gravity..). my grandma and aunt had a great time wow-ing and laughing.. imagine.. you were watching tv when a youngster pops his head in and asks for your niece (granddaughter for grandma).. holding a cake with a candle.. and then sings happy birthday. he just came to give he's wishes and a cake (thanks for remembering my favourite flavor) and had to go home (well.. it was quite late.. about 8?) and please don't expect me to cry 'cos i'm soo.. touched. well.. to tell you the fact. i'm an ungrateful brat. 'cos i really expected him to do that at, 'cos who in the world will call you on your birthday, not wish you b'day, then ask for the directions to block 817.. when you live in BLK 815?!? haha.. but i am very happy. 'cos at least he did that. (normally he's the first in the whole world to wish me happy birthday.. it would be so abnormal to not hear it from him.) and to CG.. okok.. i owe you a hug alright? but will fanny (his girlfriend) be fine with it? haha..

and yah.. siew. you did what you did yesterday on purpose RIGHT?! hmh. lol..

oh and this.. in afternoon..
mum: those two girls called you yet?
sq: nope. don't know.. maybe they're up to something..
mum: maybe the surprise is they forgot your birthday.
(well.. seems like mum's always right)

and when i got a red packet from my granny..
granny: i give everyone a red packet on their birthday.
cousin: really?
granny: of course!
cousin: well, then why don't you give granddad one on his birthday?

well.. enough about my birthday. ain't really that interesting.. but still i managed to rant a big lot about it. k now. i'll be off. and the fact is.. i'm bad tempered. and i'm still pissed. maybe i should try forgetting birthdays too. heck.

if someone annoys you.. just point and laugh.

2004-10-18T19:06:00.000+08:00

oh yah. guys... new songs. and new cursor. and don't curse me for the irritating cursor.. cos it took me an irritatingly long time to get that done. and if you didn't know.. i LOVE dogs!

quoteless

2004-10-18T18:15:00.000+08:00

i wanted to proudly say that today is the last day ever, i'll wear the temasek junior college uniform.

but sadly.. no. it's not. i still have to wear them to the A level examinations.. oh well. all i could really say is thanks. thanks marcus tan and HOD of maths, mrs lim. that's all. i'm not good with goodbyes.

ok. i'm truly sorry people.. didn't mean take such a long break from blogging.. but hey. why shouldn't i mug when the rest of the world who's taking the As are mugging? so please forgive me.

actually.. i'm quite crapless now. so.. i'll copy crap for you from xiew's blog... *looks at siew* and paste it in mine.

nah.. i'm joking. just wanted to say, people. stop using iwebmusic. i've stopped 'cos i was a victim of that idiot company too. i'd rather have no music then use iweb. even if you have norton antivirus.. iweb is still a horrible bugger.. i shan't say more.. read it for yourself on xiew's blog. *points to the link xiew-tuna on the left*

well! for those of you who haven't heard me talk about gay-ism.. or read my notebook. here's my case on gays.

i'm gay all over.. about gays. and for those people who didn't know that gay means happy before there was anything called homosexuals (well it still means happy..) please go check your dictionary.

well.. as long as there's no PDA.. (not palm top.. public display of affection) i'm totally for gays.. i don't know how in the world did they "evolve" and joined in the crowd.. but hey.. they are no aliens.. (they come from the womb a straight woman..) they deserve their rights. god.. give me an essay about homosexuals for A level gp.. i'll pass with flying colors..

then again.. before you shrug and stare at me (or at the computer screen) like your eyes are gonna drop out.. get this straight. I AM STRAIGHT. although i admit that i think gays are nicer males then guys and that i do like them. but guys.. (guys here means you people.. not the males..) i still prefer tall, handsome, witty, rich and straight man for a partner. i'm totally not into lesbianism. maybe it's 'cos of my sexual preferance that makes me like gay guys more than les-girls.. but hey.. i don't hate les.. just don't feel so comfortable about it.. (maybe 'cos i'm a girl.. *glares at whoever tries to contradict me*)

oh.. and if you were wondering why i'm talking about this.. it's cos i saw a gay couple on my way to gym. so friendly, smiley, attractive male species.. (sadly not available..) totally not sissy.. and no PDA.. just lotsa sweetness.. Awww.... (don't shrug! this is a liberal society. {can't believe i said that! i'm such a feminist!}) so people.. if you can't accept and understand.. at least.. tolerate. make the world a better place. (what am i going on about?! i don't even know.. whatever)

well.. well.. well.. isn't that enough crap? oh and. for those who wanna know my progress in the gym-to-slim.. i've put on 2kgs.. and became tanner. whatever. i shall destroy my weighing machine.. (must be the chocolates.. but then again.. must be the weighing machine. i need a new one)

when speed increases, mass increases.. not my fault.. it's the treadmill.

2004-10-10T13:14:00.000+08:00

i totally cannot stop thinking about the trip to Gunung Stong after As... so shiok! siEw! i want your digicam!! take pictures as i go along.. searched the net for info about the trek. it's sooooo different from the mt. kinabalu one.

kinabalu -- cold stong -- hot
kinabalu -- waterdroplets and rain stong -- streams and rivers (must waddle.. through)
kinabalu -- lodging stong -- huts and tents
kinabalu -- one big piece granite summit (steep) stong -- a lot of pieces of granite uphill (just as steep)

ah lau and me (the only 2 girls) and a few of my class guys plus my civics tutor, are gonna embark on the journey up gunung stong! i can't wait.. i know it won't be easy.. and i may not be determined enough.. but i know with my pals around and the adventure worth a life time.. hey! that's worth more than 200 bucks. and yes. i've saved 50 bucks this 2 weeks.. i feel so accomplished.. i'll keep up the good work for this hiking trip and grad night (which is 4 days? after the climb?).

killing 2 birds with one stone. one, a trip overseas; two, slimming for grad night. haha.. just hope i don't get scratch marks.. scars.. or anything during the trip.. cos i've paid a humongous sum of 85 bucks for gradnight.. and i wanna make it worth it.

and before i go.. here's a few pics for you to make out what Gunung Stong is like.

one of the waterfalls

the trail up..

Never measure the height of a mountain until you have reached the top. Then you will see how low it was

2004-10-07T10:53:00.000+08:00

the school's computers are so freaking slow.. this is the 3rd computer i've tried, it's the best one i can get.

well. i'm here i waste my time for 50minutes, before i faithful go back to mugging.. i really just wanna go to the gym.. stupid general paper mock test.. fine. i'll grow fat and STILL fail the mock. whatever. i'm not here to complain about school and gp and stuff..

so i should go on to unload my crap pouch.. which, actually is quite empty.. ok then.. i'll talk about something useless.. so if you want your precious time and don't want to waste it on reading useless things. get lost.

and i mean now.

too bad, i don't have a handy digicam like siew.. so i can show you what i'm gonna talk about. it's my first birthday present. quite early for one actually.. but still, i must thank my mum for this watch and not killing for losing my other watch..

well it's a plastic digital watch, pink face and half- transparent (what's the word for that?) light purple strap. it's those with the long rectanglar face.. i don't know how to describe.. just let me let you.. i've wasted 10 mins on sketching out the watch with ms paint with the paintbrush. i can't be bothered.

well there you go. this watch is worht 10 bucks.. compare that to the stone studded one with a leather strap and a brand on top that cost 70 bucks.. at least my mum didn't kill me. ok then. off to studying. may not be online for a few days..

If we didn't have to eat we'd be rich, I said, imitating something to say...

2004-10-04T18:09:00.000+08:00

after listening to zillions of complains of that stupid midi file playing.. here you go. i've changed the music. it's from the soundtrack of colors of sound. the jimmy lee film.

that's all i have to say now. i'm dead beat, brain dead.

*overturns crap pouch* nothing.

always write in red ink, so no one can correct you..

2004-10-03T13:52:00.001+08:00

17 days. 17 days to the day i can legally drink wine. i should have posted a day early.. then i would be 18 days to my 18th birthday. ok.. no link. whatever. but people, let me tell you. i already have 2 bottles of grape wine (yes.. i love white wine) chilling in my fridge.. waiting for the arrival of the day when my dad will stop saying, "you're still not old enough (even though it's less then a few days to my birthday)" yes! and so, hui, jo and cg will enjoy my with moi, my first glass of legal wine. yes.

and the wine in waiting in the fridge, was actually a door gift for a wedding dinner at fullerton. and mind you. it's quite exquisite. it's not those sausage wine you see in cheers and 7-11. and of course.. the chocolates were a must give - one dark and one white for each.

filthy rich.

when my parents came home last night (when i was lying on the sofa, fulfilling my potato-couching time), my mum burst into the door, "qi ah! look! they gave each one of us a bottle of wine! and chocolates! even gave us a nice bag to put it in!" of course my mum said that in chinese.. or it'll sound like "qi ah! look. they gibe whine and cho-co-let leh! and nice bag too! nice hor?" ok.. i should stop discriminating my mun's english.. don't be mistaken. i love my mum.. haha.. she's so cute.

well back to the point. i wow-ed. i mean, how many people can afford to do that?! but then again.. that guy's a director (not movie director.. company director.. earns big bucks by signing documents. not bad a job, heh? lol..). the wine bottle has 2 labels.

the one in front was

2rd october

e wedding day of

whoever and whoever

thank you for sharing our joy

the one at the back is the description of the wine and the contents.. the usual stuff.

"wah.. i want to do sometime like that on my wedding day too!" i was dreaming aloud. mum and i looked at each other and we both understood something. "i'm gonna get a rich husband." lol.. well, not really, rich is not really in the criterion, but it would be a bonus. won't it? but really.. wedding day is like the only day, when you're not young anymore, that you can live like a princess as if you were in a fairy tale.

but for now. husband-searching is a not-yet. let me finish my As at least. and let me past the mark of 18 years participation as a user of planet earth's supply of oxygen. yes.

my brother just walked pasted, "why do you want to drink wine legally when you can drink it illegal?" well, people if you're thinking so too, let me tell you why, because my purpose is not to drink wine, but to remind people of my birthday. yes. lol.. so you better not forget! and at the same time i should do desmond and tyang justice too. they're having their birthday's too.

and before you think i'm shameless (which yes.. i admit i'm a little but not really true), i'm just excited.. at least i'm not listing a birthday wish list, k? (which i really wanted to. but if you want me too. i will do it willingly. haha..).

enough of my crappings.

enticipation.. best estasy

2004-09-30T21:23:00.000+08:00

under kat's inspiration.. i've decided to come up with a story too! hey kat. you must read, k? tell me what you thing about it. i'll keep at it. this is chapter 1. or the prologue. get me a title!

every year, this day, i think of him. how we used to laugh together, play with my teddy bears, give each other suprise presents for no reason at all.

i remember how the kids love having him around the house. i remember how he fell in love with my bestfriend. i remember how he cried when it was over. i remember how he held my hand when i was cold. i remember how he hugged my tears again. i remember how he made me smile. i remember how he talked about his girl. i remember how he never really left me. i remember how..

i'm always just his pal.

today. is our day. the day we bought doppelganger. how he said he'd kiss me if i cry. all, written in our book -- doppelganger. i remember how said it's a he, and he said it's a she.

i remember. a lot.

after he found his girl. i didn't seem to matter anymore. i am just a pal, someone to pick him up when he are down, but he has his girl now, so i not needed anymore. it's all different now. he leads his life. i lead mine. the kids have forgotten him. but i still remember, him, james, as always.

as i flip through doppelganger, i think of him. i listen to the songs we loved and sang together, to each other. i wonder whether to call him. i saw his email. i dialed.

"hey, girl! what's up? any new guys on the hook?" he's on the beat, as always.

"what do you think?" of course. he must be thinking.

"of course! rich? handsome? witty?" sounding just like my mum. "like me?" then again. not.

"goodness, do you think my life is just about these guys who come and go?"

"haha.. ok, ok. but you're always out with some guy, the longest it lasts is 3 dates. when are you ever going to settle down?"

"and when will you stop asking me that?"

"soon. i hope. oh yah so you called to say? it's been quite a while, ain't it?"

"yea..."

and we talk about doppelganger and our old friends. then we talked about your girl. your life. you. and that bad habit of yours. and how i sound as happy as always, you say. but i guess you never knew i loved you. but i never say it, and he'll never know i mean it that way.

i'm just a pal.
like always.

goodness.. i think this sounds more like an ending.. nevermind then. girls hope you like it. guys. hope you learn something from it.

Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes...just be an illusion.

2004-09-30T14:06:00.000+08:00

Ooo.. i'm shivering all over..

just did my gym session.. and here i am letting everything go to waste.. chomping down a hot dog with the works.. but hey, at least i'm drinking carrot juice, ok?

well, gym on a weekday morning is great! there were only 2 gym instructors and a cute guy *winks* there when i went in. no mediacorp artiste.. no aunties.. no fat sweat man. cool. it's so empty.. and of course.. the power98 music rocks.. plays just the right kinda music for a work out..

*aww.. typing this sucks.. my arms are sore..*

oh well.. sadly.. i've become a horrible looking pig when i work out in the ugly size 44 TJ birdshit green mass pe shirt and with my hair tied up like i'm bald.. must have ruined my reputation.. no 'hi's, no smiles from the cute guy.. sharws.. nevermind.. so i shall concentrate on my work out. until this aunty came in at about 1215.. woah. she was totally in full suit gym wear.. i could say nice legs for an aunty.. (about my size.. maybe a bit slimmer..). but goodness. that's the kind of gym wear that i've tucked into the corner of my wardrobe.. willing myself to become slimmer so i could wear it again.. so imagine.. that aunty.. she has a tummy like all typical aunties do.. so yeah.. she looks like a dumpling.

and goodness sake.. she was on the treadmill for 30 minutes.. doing what? walking. i mean hello?! you can go shopping for 2 hours.. that would work better.. really. i was running like a maniac on the threadmill trying to finish 3km under 18 minutes (yes i know it's slow.. but it's just warm up k?).. which ended up as 2.6km in15min.. but that's not the point.. the point is.. the aunt didn't even finish 3 km in half an hour! goodness.. things aunties (tai tai-s) do.. maybe i should make a list of my observations.

1. they come to the gym with makeup.
2. they get a big locker for their small purse.
3. they walk on the treadmill.. willing not to sweat.
4. they take 5 seconds break after each pull, or push on the weights.
5. they are there to watch the makan sutra on the TV.
6. i don't know.. i was out of the gym by then.

funny. maybe i should start doing observations every gym session.. many funny people around.. and cute guys too *wink*.

*my arms are still sore* too bad my tummies not.. that's where all the fat is.. i'm gonna work it out later.. *looks for SHAPE magazine*

shit. i just saw this:
jus de carotte (the drink)
nutriention facts (per can serving)
calories.. 124kcals.

giuts.. i remember seeing that i've burnt 46kcals or cals on the bicycle screen.. (yes.. i CAN cycle.. only the ones in the gym though..) what about the hotdog?! i guess at least 800kcals..
giuts. i've really wasted that gym session then.. now i know what's the big fuss about calories.. easy to gain.. hard to lose..

whatever. nevermind. i'm not gonna count calories.. overwhelming numbers.
well it's 1430hr now.. i better get my beauty sleep and get to work soon.. study for the As..

*aww.. my arms are still dead..*

efficiency is intelligent laziness..

2004-09-29T13:41:00.000+08:00

why doesn't hard work pay off?! i'm just pissed. very pissed. and before i start hurling vulgarities at no one.. i better be off.

hard work spotlights the character of people: some turn up their sleeves, some turn up their noses, and some don't turn up at all..

2004-09-28T16:10:00.000+08:00

i was looking out if the window after bringing in the laundry.. and well.. i looked down and thought, "what would it be like to fall from here?" well.. for your infomation, i live on the 16th floor, the top floor of the flat. quite cool.. i thought. it would be closest thing to flying, but yah.. it's will also make me the closest thing to a squashed tomato. so everything just stopped at being just a thought.

well.. it's a breezy day today.. and maybe i shouldn't waste my time here. i should sleep my way through the afternoon just like yesterday. giuts.

may the winds of destiny carry you aloft to dance with the stars.

2004-09-27T21:39:00.000+08:00

goodness. that tomodachi entry. is getting alot of publicity.. and people.. can i say it again? i'm not in love.. and i don't love anyone.. 'cos i haven't found anyone worthy.. and hell. i was refering to one of my long lost girl friends.. and you guys make me fell les.. saying all that..

yucks. goosebumps.

i am totally straight. ok? evidence: my indian boyfriend. haha.. right chocolate? don't believe me? you shouldn't. look:

well haha..chocolate don't get angry ok? haha.. well.. he's wanhui's husband too. but people.. i don't mind getting a chinese or english or american boyfriend. and for your information.. if you didn't know.. i'm not with that american guy anymore. yessh..

well i should go on about yesterday.. basketball girls gathering.. so funny.. you should have been there.. you get a good laughing exercise.. no need for that indian laughing club mr chan always talks about..

VJ pal: hello? (indian accent)
chocolate: hello?
VJ pal: hello? ershad (indian accent)
chocolate: who are you?
VJ pal: i'm sq an hui's friend.. i heard from them that you are very handsome(indian accent)
chocolate: silence
VJ pal: hello? ershad (indian accent)
chocolate: yes (half laughing) you are joanna right?
VJ pal: no! i'm not joanna! she's not as sexy as me. i'm marranta gabralahbrah.(whatever she said) (indian accent)
chocolate: laughing..
VJ pal: i love you! you wanna marry me? i've got a diamond ring here.. i'm waiting for you, know? i sing indian song to show my love for you.. (then she just any-oh-how gabrah gabrah..) (indian accent)

well.. the phone call lasted for almost 20 minutes? yap i think. and poor chocolate had to choose between the VJ pal, hui and me.. in the end.. he just concluded we were too bored.. well. not really.. the 4 girls were rolling not the floor laughing their guts out.. even our ms. librarian.. goodness.. and when i say we were rolling on the floor.. i really mean it! it's like when you laugh so hard you can't even sit on the chair..

whatever it was.. chocolate. being a nice guy didn't bitch a thing today in school, except laugh with us at the mention of it.. so chocolate. thanks for the lovely time.. "hello? (indian accent)" haha.. ok.. whatever. i think you can't feel the funny-ness of this.. but i'm just talking crap like always.

someday my prince will come. He just took a wrong turn, got lost and is too stubborn to ask for directions

2004-09-27T11:34:00.000+08:00

i've changed the word size.. it's significantly bigger now.. and that's only b'cos my indian boyfriend mr. chocolate complained the words are not user-friendly.. so i decided to up the font. yap.

and of course we had a great thing with my boyfriend.. haha.. yesterday..
well logging off.. later

make the box small, so it's easier to think outta the box..

2004-09-25T10:00:00.000+08:00

was just feeling all-so-sentimental.. so i wrote this little "story".. sheessh.. this is totally not me (the damn-shit screamer).. haha.. but hey! mister (or lady..) i'm priviledged to PMS.. so i can be mushy and goosebumpy once every month alright?! whatever it is... i'll get on with this feeling.. i'll just type as it goes..

as an author.. i should type this before hand..

this is a work of fiction. any resemblance to real events or people, living or dead, nice or nasty, is entirely coincidental.

hee.. kk.. i'll get on with it.

**tomodachi**

it was just a 3 cents cloth.. on which i used what was left of the farbic paint i have at home to draw your nick on it.. the cloth ain't good.. it tore a hole through when i used too much paint.. so in the end.. i made it look like a mess.. so that the hole wasn't too obivous.. haha.. well yeah.. and i thought maybe your girl was right.. you won't like this type of impractical stuff.. so i din dare to hand in to you personally.. i just threw it in the bag with the practical present. then when i saw you smile.. when you saw that cloth.. i didn't know whether it was real or just being polite.. i mean the smile.. i was just glad you din say anything bad.. and i was shocked when you said you like it.. that was the best memory i had of you. you on your 18th birthday.

i don't know what happened.. but all of a sudden.. we weren't that friendly anymore.. i don't know what happened.. i just know that.. we aren't really on friendly terms anymore.. it was sad.. for you were a friend i would treasure. but.. i don't know.. suddenly.. you glare at me.. you don't smile anymore.. maybe it wasn't sudden.. it was just that i didn't believe what i saw.. until it become reality when people around noticed and spoke of it.. sigh..

no matter what it is. i hope it's past.. and we're still friends.. i know what some "friends", i may call, of mine.. have accused me of doing things i have not done to you. but i don't wanna explain.. 'cos i trust that you trust me enough and know me well enough to know i won't do such things.. you know how i always apologise after making joke of you or whenever i see that smirk of yours dissapear.. so i believe you know that i'm not what they say i am.. well maybe i'm wrong.. but really.. i was glad... and still am.. that you actually smiled at me yesterday.. that you replied me when i said good luck.. with a cheeky grin.. so whatever happened.. that gap.. i will not fill..

for i know whatever was isn't important anymore..
as long as we're still friends. :)
god bless you. good night and sweet dreams.

**tomodachi**

oh well.. the reason why i'm typing this very very very long entry is.. my internet explorer.. is exploring the net a-little-too-slow.. yes. i took nearly a hour to load.. so here i am.. making use of the time typing my newest longest entry.. argh.. and wondering why i can't write this much for gp essays.. ah ha! must be my life is too interesting to be compared to a gp essay.. yes yes yes.. that must be the reason (ok.. whatever.. it's another pathetic excuse for being horrid at gp).

i'm thinking about the terminal.. and dnangel.. i've done nothing today, except staring at screens.. but i'm really too much in a daze to talk crap (though crap is bad enough).. i'll end up blabbering in baby language that you won't understand and babies can't read.. so.. i better shut up now..

fantasy is my reality..

2004-09-24T11:02:00.000+08:00

god.. am i damn glad that i have the whole day to myself today. lovely.

no reason for me to pop out of bed at 6 nor at 7 or 8 or 9.. though my biological clock has woken me up at 7 thirds.. but i've managed to stay in bed, hooked on to re-reading jemina jones.. and thinking about the gym routine i promised myself after the prelims. giuts.

so now. i'm up and about, 'cos surprisingly my lazy bum pal has msg me to get out and get shopping at 11.. but she's dreaming.. cos there's no way i'm gonna spend this beautiful morning anywhere else but in my bed (even though the construction downstairs has started and is irritating the shit outta me). yes. so i'll be meeting them later to shop. i've got a whole day of activities lined up with the girls. shop, eat and have fun. wild time.

well the construction is really getting on my nerves.. i feel like screaming outta the window, "fuck off! shut the damn shit up!" but yea.. being the thoughtful, sweet me (don't you dare roll your eyes.. i'll punch your eyeballs out).. i did not and will not.. and moreover, i've been an archi intern.. so i should understand how it's never a good time to be doing constructions, 'cos all the drilling and piling is gonna get all the way to the neighbors' complain letters and the authorities.. but there's nothing you can do but bear with the complains and vulgarity-hurlings and keep up with the schedule and deadlines. so ya.. i'm just typing not screaming..

but hell.. is this gettin on my nerves.. whatever. it shall not spoil the beautiful day i'll be treating myself to today. well yeah. i was gonna talk about the promise i made.. to be working out at the gym and stuff. well.. it's all set. every friday or sunday or both.. i'll be down at the club gym.. i bet the gym instructor (lets just call him GI..) is gonna be crying-smiling when he sees me back at the gym.. 'cos he miss the goody girl who does her routines without complains and always challenges new weights.. but at the same time.. this SQ that he's getting back is not gonna be the SQ that was what she was 3 yrs ago.. he's gonna challenge new weights too.. the weight is those that i've put on.

all that gym gear? sports bras, lycras shorts.. bury them. not even the basketball jersey.. you'd see my flabby arms.. so i'll be there in my big shirt that says "donald duck" and pe shorts (mind you.. my shorts are not at all short.). yep. but there's still a problem.. i don't even know when i'll get down to really going to the gym. and mind you.. i only go to one gym.. and really just one and only one.. the club gym.. cos that's the only place i know with all the equipment i need and i feel comfy there (and you don't need to queue.. that's the best thing).

but enough of that sweaty stuff.. i need a bath and a change or clothes.. cos i need to get myself presentable to the public. yes. time for shopping.. and yah..

if you haven't watched the terminal.. watch it. it's worth the bucks. it's touching but not tearing-jurking and it's hilarious.. you'd love it. even the guys.. 'cos my brother loves it too! tom hanks in that funny accent is ah-peh-cute.. haha.. and there's this other guy.. the the cleaner.. so ah-peh-monkey-cute.. and another guy who transports the food that's just plain sooo cute! and well of course, guys.. not forgeting the charming lady lead.. (whatever her name is and though hui and kat has said it so many times.. whateverhernameis-jones..).. she's so cool non-bimbo sweetish dropdead gorgeous.. woah.. *sweeps you off your feet*.. kk.. so.. girls, guys.. go watch it.

while i enjoy my day today!

May you live every day of your life.